LOVE

Love and admire sometimes can just go so far that you can recall and cherish every moment between you and your love one. What I mean here is really the love between couples. Sometimes you thought you had already let him go but then still you will have itchy hands that clicks on his profile picture when you sees it on your Facebook news feed page. Or maybe purposely to be active for that moment when you know he's on. And then you'll wish for a chat with him and try to discover more on his recent activities yet you had already known as you are viewing his profile all the time. That's what I feel right now. I thought I had already let it go but then still I will try my best to catch up with his activities and basically I know most of his things even we did not contact at all. I will stare at his pictures, scolding and complaining about his attire and pretend to look down on him, feel lucky and blessed enough that I'm not in a crush on him anymore. But sooner do I realize that he's still important in my life as he's still occupying some sort of space in my heart. I too will feel jealous and envy when some other girls are trying to approach him. He's not declared mine yet I just do not like it. Of course I do know that he'll never be mine but I still stands on this with hope. Who knows? At first I thought he was a gift from God and I pray a lot on this. But then the feeling starts to fade off when you see undesirable things happen. I thought I was the special one to him. I thought I'm the only one that is sharing some secrets with him. I thought he'll put me as his priority in sharing his own feelings and thoughts. Then I started to show off in order to declare that he is mine where he did enjoy it. I will keep his belongings when he's playing basketball, sweep away his sweat with his signature towel, bring him his bottle when he's thirsty, watch him in his basketball match where he will Hi-5 me when he scores on scoreboard. We hold hands in front of our friends, even in front of his PARENTS. But still he say no promises to me. I've been waiting for all these days but obviously he did not take the first step. Perhaps this incomplete and imperfect relationship will stay forever in my heart.

Oh God maybe I'm just too lonely? LOL.

I need a boyfriend immediately!

Maybe a girlfriend will do too.

Just kidding =)

Wish you all to have LOVE in your life!

I recommend you to listen to "LOVE" by Jaeson Ma!

Love you.

X.O.X.O.