ESCAPE

You Wouldn't Want to Read

2012-02-16T20:22:00.002+08:00

I am that kind of girl that is always firm and steady, if not then pretending to be firm and steady. I project myself to be a tough girl and nothing can bring me down. I am independent enough to handle all sorts of situation if I am willing to.

And if I'm being bitchy, I really am pissed and stressed.

There's no other way for me to release my stress but to perform violence and I will start yelling and screaming like a total BITCH.

I will then lock myself in the washroom and cry like I've never cried before.

The next thing I will do? I will start wandering around, ALONE. Observing people, or maybe not. Walking into random shops, sitting on staircases and benches.

That's the only time for myself.

"Stop talking bullshit to me and stop acting like you fucking know me!"

"I'm so fucking tired of all these endless shit!"

I just fucking hate people who think they know me very well, or they are more experienced bla bla bla.

"Just fuck off bitch! It's non of your fucking business!"

"Go fuck yourself!"

FUCK LEVEL - INFINITY.

不要了

2012-01-03T00:18:00.003+08:00

在朋友的婚礼中相遇，我鼓起勇气地对他说了一句从未对别人说过的话：“我要追你。”

他的反应很可爱，也给了我很大的希望。

他开心地说：“好啊！我会为你祷告的！我们大家一起加油！”

当时心里，是甜滋滋的。

我已经记不清自己到底喜欢他多久了，只知道是很久很久。不知道是怎么喜欢上他的，只知道是很喜欢、超级喜欢。不知道是何时失去联络的，只知道我们曾经很要好。

终于成了采取主动的那一方，我盼望这守候了很久的感情能够开花结果。

每天的通话是甜蜜的，互相关心、安慰、打气。

但是，我放弃了。

我看到了一个关键点：我很犯贱。为什么要把自己搞得如此卑微？为什么要把自己搞得这么累？

我真的很喜欢他，但是我真的很累。苦苦守候了几年才发现，他只祝过我一次生日快乐。每天传信息都是我采取主动，如果我没有找他，那么他就不会想起我。他从不曾找过我chat，也不曾主动打电话给我。5年了，我都是采取主动的那一方。当兵时周末拿到手机会打给他、他当兵时去探望他，他难道看不出来吗？那也实在太白目了吧？

这么多年，我累了。

我不想再这样下去。

我想这就是所谓的“哀莫大于心死”了吧！

朋友都问我为何要放弃，都已经坚持了那么多年，现在就这样放弃不会觉得可惜吗？

多年来我也一直口口声声说要放弃，却还是犯贱地开他的profile来看。

就那么容易放弃吗？

这最近一次的相遇就是一个关键。

当我觉得终于可以进一步发展时，他竟然忘了我的生日。

我从不曾忘记他的生日，甚至他的电话号码，我也可以倒背如流。

一个每天与你通电话的女生、每天向你报备行程的女生，你会不懂自己对她有多重要？

我心死了。

放弃 - 并不是因为不在乎；而是无论我多么在乎，也换不来你的一丝在乎。

痛 - 心痛、痛彻心扉、忍痛放弃。

除非有那么一天、除非他真的是神为我预备的、除非他采取主动。

不然...

我不要你了！再见柯景腾。

2012's First Post

2012-01-02T23:50:00.003+08:00

A new year again, with nothing much to expect. Classes after classes, assignments after assignments.

Just kidding! I'm actually looking forward for 2012. Doubt me? Better not. I'm officially 21 and I already have my Genting World Card LOL. So gonna spend my weekends in Genting Casino. TEE HEE :)

Anyway am back to campus life again after 2 months of hectic life. Seriously I do learn a lot during my internship and I'm so proud to be someone reliable. Job plans are coming in but I'm not sure whether I should make it or not. I love this job as it's challenging and of course it does make you happy when you accomplish the tasks. It all become worth it when your clients say thank you to you. My goose bumps was like "woo....uh.....uh..." when I get the thank you e-mail. Love it!

I'm so sorry I'm currently not in the mood to update about my internship. There're too much to be told. Maybe I shall just post my report here someday.

Bad thing about 2012: 8am class fml.

2011-12-20T01:41:00.000+08:00

Hahaha....
Life's pathetic.

真爱要等待

2011-12-12T08:45:00.001+08:00

一个人的旅程从来不是一件易事。
当没有人介入你的生活、了解你的生活时，一切竟变得如此渺小。
当没有人可以和你分享生活上的喜悦时，一切竟变得如此灰暗。
这是孤独的呐喊。
这是寂寞的悲哀。
独自一人的生活或许看来潇洒，却深藏无尽空虚。
独自一人的生活或许看来自由，却拥有封闭的心。
你总需要那么一个人：他不是你的家人、也不只是你的好友，但却能够明白你、了解你、在你需要他的时候陪伴你。
他的关心或许不必家人来得多，却能让你倍感窝心。
他的贴心或许不比好友们优秀，却能让你心生喜悦。
他的出现不单单只是生命上的点缀，更能为你带来灵命上的增长。
你们可以彼此分享神的话语，也可以时时警惕对方做蒙神喜悦的事。
他的出现就是神的安排，或许他现在还不懂得，但只要心存盼望、诚心祷告、用心期待，必有机会。
不要埋怨，漫长的等待并不代表失败，这只是意味着时机未到。
假如你觉得他就是那个对的人，请务必怀着信心，等待最好的时机。
假如你觉得他就是那个对的人，请务必时时装备自己，务求在灵命里达至共通。
假如你觉得他就是那个对的人，请务必诚心祷告，神必为你开路。

天父：祂总是为你预备最好的。

加油哦！:)

1114

2011-11-14T22:41:00.003+08:00

Due to the high demand of my best bitchy friend, I'm here to update my blog again. Too bad I can't blog much about my life as an intern due to the P&C restrictions. But I am surely having a wonderful time in my company. Get to participate in both pre-production and post-production is definitely an eye-opening process. A 30 seconds TV commercial might take more than a month from concept drafting to final editing. It is never easy to produce a production. Talents, location of shooting, wardrobe fitting, concept drafting, script writing........ OH MY!

Seriously I have nothing more to share. I can't reveal any of the company's current project :(

Am going for shooting this coming Thursday.

Am going to Penang this coming Saturday.

Am going to Mid Valley to do wardrobe reference tomorrow!

YESH! Shop on behalf of the company!!! :)

Day 2

2011-11-02T23:05:00.002+08:00

第二天的实习，忙碌得让人窒息。

“当学生真的很幸福”

以前从不同意的说法，却成了实习第二天的感慨。讽刺的是，原来每一个人都是这么想的。

重重的压力随之而来，谁会料到工作的第二天就要策划一份企划案呢？

第一天的storyboard and script drafting已十分吃力，殊不知第二天还要策划一个超大型的节目？

是老板高估了实习生的能力吗？那我们应该要感到自豪吧？哈哈。

原以为这次的实习只是参与一些幕后supporting的工作，怎知原来还要发挥我那“有限公司”的创意。

公司有好多的project在进行及策划当中，我怕！

但是有outstation allowance，我爱！

我要见到Steve Yap，我喜欢！

The second day of internship is again busy and tiring. I now know the meaning of "appreciate your time of being a student". I used to think that working life is awesome as you get to earn for your own but now? I enjoy my life as a student more. The pressure mode is so on right now, not only of the endless working hours but also the super productive team here. They are so productive that we just had a meeting during the night before and they have everything ready to be presented to the client next morning. A new task came in today: drafting a proposal for a TV game show. I was like WTF. The previous one was so good that I have no confidence to make this one a better version. Nationwide involvement? Come on. I'm so dead.

Anyway, I am looking forward for the shooting session and we will travel outstation too :)

Met The boss today: An elegant woman in black suit with pearl necklace, carrying a MacBookPro in her Gucci tote. I likey :)

But...... She's super strict :(

The environment:

The office: Super modernized features, having white and various greys as the color concept, with a touch of orange color to boost creativity. I like too :)
Wardrobe: I hate to the max. I just had everything rearranged today.
Editing room: The most comfortable working place I've ever seen, with a super-sized sofa and 5 screens WTF.
Studio: I have not encountered it yet.
Pantry: Pantry rocks! :)

Will update more soon.

Creativity and ideas you faster lai. Gam Xiah.

20111024

2011-10-24T17:52:00.003+08:00

Internship. A common word for university students. What runs through your mind when you think of internship? Hard work with low pay? Reports and evaluations? NAH.

For me, internship comes with the wrong timing. I have great opportunities ahead, right after accepting one of the company. Yes of course the company is good enough. Way better than what I've expected. But why are there always better opportunities after my confirmation? ISH. I hate.

I will start my life as an intern next month, working in a production company. And hereby the phone calls came in. From the leading event company in Malaysia to the biggest magazine company. Another opportunity gone today, working in MIFA as the director's personal assistant.

Why? Why? Why?

BLOODY!

Timing, why you fool me?

Opportunities, why you no come earlier?

Chances. why you come all together?

Temptations, why you disturb me?

Promises, I have to keep them.

But then.........

God has His plan for me and I think it will be a good one.

Fingers crossed!

Here I come yo TVC production!

Wish me luck for tomorrow's paper. Final exam FML

Still

2011-10-16T02:54:00.003+08:00

STILL by Hillsong

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me within your mighty hand
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

There're so many uncertainties in life that we can't tell. Obstacles and unwanted circumstances are always there for us and sometimes we can't do anything about them. I've been constantly worrying about my plans. From accommodation to internship, from financial sources to spiritual life, from diverse point of view to obeying God. There're so much for me. Once one problem is settled, another one would come. Insomnia almost every night due to these worries is driving me crazy. I dare not tell anyone. I told God about my problems and I had a great sleep last night. God takes my burden away from me. However I'm back to confusion during day time again. It is such a failure to only feel near to God when I'm alone. I should walk by God's path all the time. But honestly this is so hard. The temptations around me are so strong and I could barely ignore them. I am a super materialistic person and I wish for everything to be luxurious. My spiritual life is now a mess. I basically worry about everything around me and God reminds me about this verse in the Bible:

"So do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring worries of its own. Today's trouble is enough for today." (Matthew 6:34)

For I shall pray and leave all my burdens to You.

For I shall look forward and stay strong to overcome tomorrow's problem.

For I shall live for You.

For I shall have enough faith on You.

"So I say to you, Ask, and it will be given you; search, and you will find; knock, and the door will be opened for you." (Luke 11:9-10)

I pray for Your lead and guidance.

Tonight is a night full of blessings for I found peace in me.

Tonight is a night full of blessings for I found You in me.

Hallelujah.

I will be still know You are God.

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2011-10-14T21:18:00.003+08:00

I have a lot of time wasted these days. Internet is definitely not the right place to hang on for the entire day. My assignment due is very soon and I do not have any incentive on doing it. Finals is coming but I don't give a damn. Piles of books on my table but I've never open them up. The Bible is in front of me but I just never thought of reading it. YouTube + Facebook, what a life! STUPIDITY. This is the best word describing my life. I seemed very busy with the laptop on 24/7 but God knows I did nothing. Everyday with the same routine is just bored. I'm bored of having the same class everyday. I'm bored of doing the same tasks over and over again. I'm bored of pretending who I am. I'm bored of pretending not knowing how you hate me. I'm bored of reading your Facebook statuses saying bad about me. I'm bored of faking myself. I'm bored of being the one who begs for friendship.

These negative thoughts, they trapped me, in a dark and empty room. I can't see the light, I can't feel any warmness. The optimistic thoughts in me eventually fades over time. I'm not the ME anymore. The smile on my face does not shine like before. The sincerity in my eyes has gone since long ago. The absence of joy in me makes me a scary person. Having insomnia every night best describes my fear. Going to sleep with worries and fear is like FML. I don't even dare to pray. There's just too much sins in me that I don't even dare to pray. What should I do? I used to tell Him everything but now I'm abandoning Him.

Living in reality is harsh. Fantasy and imagination can be so much better.

Oh YEAH. *me gusta*

Dear Jesus, can I knock at your door tonight? I miss you :)

I truly do.

Quotes again

2011-10-03T16:08:00.002+08:00

Why do I spend so much time on the Internet? Firstly my life sucks and I can't live without the Internet. Honest enough? Tee Hee.

Anyway found all these super awesome quotes from Facebook and Tumblr.

They do inspire in some ways. The rest are just some of my feelings. Or maybe some of them are creative enough to make me LOL.

I hope they made up your day too.

tata.

NO TITLE

2011-09-19T15:56:00.005+08:00

Today is a brand new day for me. I think something's different in me :)

He will be in the past tense and I shall move on. No more HIM in all of the coming posts. Bet on it!

Last night was rather a happy night but I was not drunk, not even close to it. How I wish I could just get drunk and forget about those things that are better left forgotten. I feel closer to you whenever I'm back to my hometown. The actual distance, as in the terms of geography, is much closer whenever I'm home. I've always been imagining on meeting you, and that's why I still try to look good even I'm at my hometown. Who knows, you might just pass by. Such a stupid girl to still look forward on something that's miserable. DUH.

I'm now awake I guess, or not.

Listening to Adele's "Someone Like You" makes me think. The lines in it is so me, but at the same time not so true for me.

"I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over"

How sad to have the "it isn't over" face on me.

"Never mind I'll find someone like you"

Ignore the "NEVER MIND", I will still find someone like you.

OK I'm now the new me, I wish. I will forget the past and move on. I wish there's someone out there for me to fill in my lonely *ahem* heart.

What happened last night then? How was I not drunk?

A sneak preview: Family dinner for the cousin! He's married, now a lou-chan :)

I better get all the pictures edited before moving on to the next post! :)

tata.... see you real soon :)

Defeated

2011-09-09T17:45:00.003+08:00

I bet you will love this quote if you're still single :)

"I'm not single, not taken either. I'm just reserved for someone who deserves me the best."

Isn't this awesome? Awww......

I'm so gonna say this :"Do you want to claim your reservation sir?"

Just a random post today.

FYI I'm in deep shit if you care.

I really hope the medicine helps or I'll have to rest on bed all the time.

Urgh.....

It's not that I can become skinnier after the sick! :(

Gonna end this post with a photograph that resembles my brain and my vision right now.

BLUR

Tata! See you ASAP. Pray for my recovery :)

奔

2011-09-08T12:01:00.003+08:00

孤单的和弦就这样一直被重复着，

就奔跑吧女孩！

在别人还未发觉你之前就奔跑吧！

让风带走你的泪，

让时间带走你的伤痛，

就奔跑吧！

那会是一个全新的世界，

你可以掩饰你的寂寞，

你可以隐藏你的泪水。

就奔跑吧！

奔向那辽阔的草原，

奔向那明亮的晨星，

奔向那更美好的明天！

枷锁

2011-09-05T23:20:00.003+08:00

人生最痛苦的一件事，莫过于不知道应该give up还是move on。

坚持了好久好久的立场，是不是在绝望时就应该放弃？

今天的我，看了一部泰国戏：《初戀這件小事》

从暗恋到表白，

从平凡到美丽，

从来不曾变质的爱情，

是否真的存在？

在戏中，我看见了女主角那不屈不挠的毅力。

在戏中，我看见了男主角那无微不至的体贴。

在戏中，我看见了女主角那满是崇拜的眼神。

在戏中，我看见了男主角那敢爱却不敢爱的矛盾。

这是一部扣人心弦的爱情小品。

然而这伟大的爱情有否可能发生在现实的生活当中？

你愿意为你所爱的人守候长达13年吗？

看了这部电影后，我霎时有想要守护下去的冲动。

我知道我从来不曾放弃过。

但是那精疲力竭的心灵已教我无从坚持下去。

那是何等矛盾的心情？

我还抱有希望，却也偷偷地绝望。

我很清楚知道，只要有那么一个人走进我的心里，你就会成为过去。

我依然还在等待着这剂良药，

一剂能够修补那千疮百孔的心的良药。

孤独和寂寞的心依然有你的存在。

你占了多少？70%吧？我不知道。

读了一位朋友的blog，

她也和我一样，依然抱有希望。

苦苦哀求，却无法挽回那爱的回报。

每天都用酒精来麻醉自己，

以泪洗面来度过漫漫长夜。

我看到她，

我觉得很心疼。

但是，今天的她不一样了。

她不再伪装自己，

她不再假装快乐。

她决定放弃，

她决定不再等待。

要做出这个决定，应该非常困难吧！

我还记得妳曾说过要等到他回心转意为止，

46天，很困难吧？

每一天的想念，是如此地煎熬。

面对着他的冷淡，妳也累了吧？

就算做再多的事情，他也不会再理会你。

是时候放手了，你清楚知道。

恭喜你，终于走出了这个枷锁。

祝福我，能早日抛开我身上的枷锁。

你

2011-09-04T16:45:00.002+08:00

“时间可以教会人懂得珍惜，却也同时能够教会人学习放弃。”

已经不知道是第几次地心存希望了。每每都幻想着你会出现，却又一次次地失望而归。为什么幻想中的情节总是如此扣人心弦？我们也曾如此相遇，彼此脸上喜悦的笑容不是言语所能够表达的。如今为何物是人非？

在别人的眼中，这或许是一段不了了之的爱情。没有承诺的等待就像在干枯的井里头打水一样，不会有回报。然而我渴望的是雨水的滋润啊！当那天来临时，你可以牵着我的手，我们一起在雨中漫步、嬉戏。然而，已身处在沙漠的这段感情，能够有幸地见证奇迹吗？

今天的我，一如往常地乘搭地铁回到KL、一如往常地往外张望、一如往常地寻找你的踪迹。多莫期望我们能够就这样相遇，然后感叹着彼此奇妙的缘分。这已经是我在这几年来的习惯了。是妄想？我不认为。我时常都会觉得你就在隔壁的车厢，我们就这样隔着一扇门，凄美又浪漫。你静静地注视着我，然后再给我一个防备不及的惊喜。好美，这样的故事：好美！

今天的我，亦一如往常地坐在靠近通过隔壁车厢的门的位置上。听着MP3，“等候” 你的惊喜。寂寞当儿，MP3里竟播放着你从前爱听的歌曲。此时的我，竟已失去了开心和甜蜜的感觉。还记得以前每每听见这首歌曲时，总会莫名地一个人傻笑。你很喜欢这首歌，甚至还把它设为电话铃声。我也是。然后故意说你学我，你就会答：“心有灵犀啦！”。这些情节，对我来说仍很深刻。

今天的我，很矛盾。我以为我已经学会放弃，但事实往往事与愿违。我越强逼自己不去想你，我就会越想你。我越逃避你，你出现的几率就越大。不公平！你凭什么控制、你凭什么牵引着我的情绪？我一定要做出一个决定，一个对我自己好的决定。

“以前的我，总爱把电话铃声换成你喜欢的歌曲。现在听的"甜甜的"，已经不再像从前那样甜了，反而越听越伤感。我再也没有边听边傻笑的感觉了。还应该抱有希望吗？歌曲播玩后，我应该会有答案。”

这是我今天update在Facebook上的status。我深深地做出决定，在歌曲播放完毕之时一定要做出决定。此时的我，也很清楚自己下的是什么决定。我竟然舍不得放弃！我仍然憧憬这段零希望的爱情能够开花结果！为什么我如此确定？因为我把“甜甜的”不停的重播又重播，继续沉溺在过往的岁月里。那时我就坐在你的车上，电话响了，我们俩很有默契的望向对方，然后绽放出灿烂的笑容。这些情节，你又记得吗？

今天的我，很蓝。

天空也很蓝。

想问你好久了：

不是狂想曲

2011-08-12T16:08:00.003+08:00

好久都没有这种感觉了。

我最近对一个男生有一点点的好感。

他：幽默、可爱、体贴、有责任感、有上进心、孝顺、成熟、有型，最重要的是：够高！

他就是那个集完美于一身的最佳代表(at least for me)。

What I look for in a man is all in him.

他很了解我、很懂我。

我们拥有同样的想法和目标。

他甚至比我还要了解我自己。

有他在，我根本不需要担心身边人、事、物的变化。

他就是有这种魔力，可以让我全然安心。

他就是有这种魔力，能够让我安心屈服。

他就是有这种魔力，让我把自己的烦恼交托于他。

他就是有这种魔力，让我像一个小女人一样依赖他。

但是他却没有足够的魔力，让我忘掉另一个他。

他却没有足够的魔力，取代另一个他在我心目中的地位。

他却没有足够的魔力，让我勇敢向前。

他却没有足够的魔力，让我决定踏出好朋友的界线。

他却没有足够的魔力，让我重新体会爱人的滋味。

哎...

多么难得，却又多么可惜。

不过我要告诉你：Once I'm ready, 我就追你！

2011-08-07T21:44:00.002+08:00

There you go the dusty escape. The end of semester 3 indicates the end of year 1. Seriously I feel insecure and I admit that I did badly in this semester. 2 design-related subjects are like WTF + ZOMG. The whole semester was like FML gao gao. Anyway let the past continue to stay in the past and now I must look forward! YESH~ Going for vacation with the babes. I'm so happy although it's just Malacca. Matter fact, the location doesn't matter as long as your trip partners are amazing enough! And what's next after the trip? FINAL EXAM. duh~ well not that bad actually, just 2 papers.

Anyway I find myself a bit cuckoo these days. Keep on thinking about stupid stuffs LOL.

Life is not that happening these days though. I hope I can have more things to post after the vacation.

I'm so gonna snap a lot of pictures!

Fear not, I will share it here!

WINKS. Safe trip! =)

2011-07-18T00:09:00.003+08:00

I feel so weak, no energy at all.

Slept for the whole day, doing nothing.

I wonder why will my body be this weak to have fever so frequently.

Maybe it's time for a super huge doze of Vitamin C I guess.

Didn't go for work today.

Didn't eat as well.

Feel so guilty for doing nothing over the weekend.

This SUCKS!

Sucks till the max.

I seriously have no strength in continuing anymore.

I can tell how tired and fatigue it is to live a life like this.

Even my body can tell by protesting with fever, headache, flu and stuffs.

I don't know how far I can go with this lifestyle.

Nation Stands

2011-07-10T00:08:00.002+08:00

Behold. It's the strongest nation that I've ever seen.

A video production filled with passion, eagerness for justice and most importantly: PATRIOTIC!

They were not in red but they love the country more than the reds do.

Where is justice?

No way.

You can never find it in this country.

STOP DIRTY POLITICS?

Let's see how's the result for this coming election.

It will be a funny one.

Have my words.

The existing ruling party will still win the election although there's 500,000 vs 500 in this democracy.

This is what we call "tak bersih".

After all, the country labeled as democratic is controlled by a dictator.

The Big Day

2011-07-08T23:20:00.000+08:00

BEWARE! We are coming!

Tears can't heal, I know

2011-07-05T23:46:00.004+08:00

You don't understand how it broke my heart.

Even small things matter.

I'm not being a bitch but seriously I didn't expect that to happen, AGAIN.

It is hard being ALONE, with no help in an environment that I'm not familiar with.

My phone was dead and I feel so lost and helpless when you are not around.

You just don't understand what it takes to make me feel safe.

Just count me in for everything.

Is it that hard?

I count my friends in for everything after that horrible incident that made me lost my friend.

I just need a sense of SECURITY, a sense of BELONGING.

Is it that hard?

I might look tough and I was still kidding and playing with the others.

You don't know that I have a heart of a glass.

I don't feel safe.

I'm doubtful.

I have no confidence in myself.

I'm worried that I'm alone.

I'm worried that I don't have any friends.

I lost my best friends, my supports before.

I can't live without friends.

I really need you to prove me I'm worth to be your friend.

I gave you all my heart.

Can I have yours?

Tears can't heal, I know.

It will just make the wound deeper.

The flesh is now so exposed that you can always come and tear more out of it.

我感觉不到我渴望的安全感和存在感。

Him Again

2011-06-28T19:44:00.003+08:00

It is pathetic when someone who is loud and noisy are having the sense of loneliness. She just couldn't find a person to rely on sometimes. Yes she does succeed in terms of family and friendship, but they are not always available for her. They too living their own lives and sometimes may not understand what she's encountering with. She just needs someone very special to share her life with. The personal space sometimes is reserved for someone who is willing to touch her heart. I'm so happy that one of my babes had finally got herself a wonderful partner, who knows her sometimes more than herself, who pampers her with all his love, who loves her more than loving himself, who sets her as the priority of his life. This is defined to be happiness. Life might be full with different obstacles but once you have your loved one with you, you will have enough guts to overcome them. Honestly this is what I'm hoping for, so easy yet so difficult to achieve. I watched the movie When In Rome for 3 times in 2 days, touched by the love of the leading male towards the girl. The scene when he get heartbroken is really sad that I too feel the pain, deep in my heart. The heartbroken feeling is like someone is tearing out a part from your heart. I can still feel the pain every time I recall the scenes. The fear and sadness in his eyes just reflects what I felt about you. I have no idea that I love you so much, and I can't even forget you after 2 damn years. My heart still beats faster and slower at the same time when I see you. My hand shivers so much and when I look directly into your eyes? Well my legs too become soften and I really feel like falling, just like the melting butter. It is so hard to pretend like nothing happened before and we are still good friends. Tell me how on earth can you fucking do that? You act as if like we are just normal friends all the time when you know our relationship is not that simple. I'm such a fucking failure to still fall for you. That was just a game for you wasn't it? And now you are most probably applying the same tactics to some other girls. I once believed that we do share something special, a very deep heart to heart conversation. No one will understand your problem more than I do, but have you really came across mine? I'm just looking for your damn concern whenever I need support! You were the one who text me in the middle of the night, telling me your problems. I once believed that you might be the one for me to settle down with, I truly believed that. Our parents were so supportive and my mother liked you so much. We were each other's precious stones before. But what about now? I'm not worth a penny to you already? You feel bad because I'm studying while you are not? You feel the distance between us because I speaks English more than you do? OK fine then I give up. And that's the time you will give me a phone call, comforting me and sugar coat all your words to me. This is like a routine. I like you, I give up and you want me back. Then you will ignore me once I'm falling for you again. How on earth can I have you out of my life then? ZYENYI WONG! Can you just fucking control your emotions and don't let him has the control over you again and again? You are not under his damn spell and it's time to wake up already!

LONELINESS, the feeling where he will never understand.

LONELINESS, the feeling that he has brought me in.

LONELINESS, you are eating me up.

I'm not trying to be fucking emo, it's just pathetic for me to still save your phone number and all of our pictures. I can't delete them for now, however there will be a time for me to do so. Maybe someday when your spell on me is broken by someone else who is worth it for me to fall again. I really don't want to give a damn about thinking of you already. I hate and I love you.

Backpacking in Perhentian

2011-06-21T22:53:00.004+08:00

Oh it's so dusty here.

It has been forever since I last update this.

I'm here just to express some of my thoughts.

I am just back from an assignment trip.

There are a total of four girls in my group and we were assigned to backpack in Perhentian Island, forced to stay at a nasty chalet as we have to budget our trip but the outcome turns out to be awesome, way beyond awesome!

Lizards, spiders and all weird insects can be found in the chalet, yet they are harmless.

The sun is so bright yet we enjoyed till the very last moment.

The people there are awesome.

The locals are so friendly and helpful, they will just lend their helping hand even they are not paid for that.

They make us feel like a family and we even offered help to serve food in the restaurant.

Jimmy: Thanks for being so helpful with the accommodation.

Zack: Thank you for offering help when our DSLR was stolen.

Kimie: I love you the most! You are such an inspiration to all of us! Thanks for the great story and the moment when we were catching crabs at the shore! Thanks for the beautiful shell as well =)

Man: It is so sweet for you to share your background with us, nice nasi lemak from your mom as well.

The backpackers are so cooperative as well.

They will not refuse us when we request for a video recording of them.

Backpackers from Norway, France, UK, Finland, Germany, USA: thank you for the help.

Laura and Carly: I love you girls! We were so impressed that you girls have already travel half across the globe at the age of 20.

Martha: It is so courageous to travel alone!

What can I say? I'm kind of addicted to backpacking already.

Yes we might not be enjoying luxurious lifestyle there but this is how you immerse yourself into the culture.

The culture is very different there.

People can just give up on what they've owned, just to pursue their dreams.

"I love the sea!" That's what a businessman from the city told us when we asked him why he left everything back then.

They live for themselves and this is very impressive.

I can never do that.

This trip is such an inspiration to all of us.

But I can't upload the pictures yet. We have to keep it a mystery till the presentation is done. So, stay tuned!

To all the backpackers out there, I strongly recommend you to stay at Moonlight Chalet if you are travelling to Long Beach at Perhentian Island. They have the best crew ever! Spot a monkey named Meelo there, she's the star of Long Beach! =)

I feel like going back to Perhentian and I believe that I will do it very soon! =)

Cheers group mates! I will upload our pictures when the presentation is done kay?

I love you all HAI POH! =)

NS

2011-06-08T00:13:00.005+08:00

Too bad I do not have the pictures of my NS life in my lappie. I'm seriously in the mood of blogging ZOMG! Perhaps I shall just write something about my pals made during NS then? Are you ready wira-wirawati? Here we go....

Dear dear Yen =)

Sorry for the left out thing in my facebook status...

I'll put you first now alright?

Love you lots!

Now look! Isn't she pretteyyy? What a babe!

Majoring in psychology, she's just the perfect counselor isn't she?

She's also selling cupcakes and those cupcakes are like heaven! YUMMY!

Michell Soo Wai Wing.

I'm so not into calling her Michell, it's so girlish duh....

I prefer calling her Wing and seriously she's the one who is willing to give you all her heart *owh so sweet*...

Her family is bloody friendly as well, they asked me to have taufu-fah in like 7 in the morning? LOL.

FYI her family is into the handmade tofu business and the smell of fresh tofu? HEAVEN AGAIN.

Dear Xiao Wei a.k.a Tee Dai Wai...

A person who is willing to contribute like 200%.

She's those kind of yee hey zai lui.

And she will never say NO if she's ready to give a helping hand.

Damn pro in photo shooting, lagi pro in shisha and drinking =)

Baby Yee Peng...

We were the closest in the camp but now we are not that close anymore sobs...

Awh... She's busy working alright?

Look at her face, I mean.... the MODEL face!

Of course she's busy! She's a MODEL!

She was the one who needs pamper and comfort from the others but at the same time she's independent and mean enough woo hoo!

Distinct difference right? LOL

Another dear dear Celina Tan Karr Juan!

A gila fan of Jay Chou and Charco, shisha and clubbing *oops*

She's so cute that you will want to cubit her face everytime you see her =)

Also a little baby who needs bloody lots of pamper...

Adorable! *hearts*

OK now guys~ I didn't include everyone in... Just 3 for now as I'm in the mood of sleeping already LOL.

Ryan the KING OF LAME! JOKER!

The ultimate shifu of lameness, nothing on earth can beat him.

He's 200 times lame-er than me!

I'm serious! You will feel like whacking him whenever he starts to talk.

Everything is lame.

Yes, even worse than you KC.

Look at his face, don't you just wanna whack him?

Cute bunny Ian Lee!

My brother, my sayang!

Oh I shall say Lee Jian Wei comma Ian (Name: Lee Jian Wei, Ian)

Cute name right?

Ended up I'm Wong space Zyenyi duh...

Anyway love him to bits as I can always bluff him mwahahaha....

He believed in everything I said =)

How cute!

Lastly in this post: Benjamin Wong

Shoot I forgot your Chinese name but who cares? You are a banana anyway LOL

Scandals in the camp, dating someone and denying it...

You know who is that right? LOL

I feel sorry for you for enrolling into shitar...

Don't you know that there are other universities that offer english language courses?

Too bad to hear that you're suffering there.

All the best bro!

That's it so far, I feel like sleeping already =(

1 assignment is down, tonnes more to go!

Anyway I'm so glad that most of us, I mean all of us are now in Cheras and Subang area.

Gathering pals?

Bila? Bila?

Jom shisha~! Jom minum! =)

Big thanks to Facebook! I heart you... The source of pictures hooray! *woots*

Goodnight... Sorry for the messy ending.

Sorry for the messy post.

I'm sleepy, my vision is blur....

WHATEVER!

Making Money

2011-06-02T19:47:00.004+08:00

The process of making money isn't easy, it's hard neither.

All we need is a wide connection of network to help you out.

So, now it's the time to do so.

This link is not only providing you the perfect information about the great deal going on, but also to provide me the opportunity to earn bucks.

What we have here is beyond our expectation.

It is a golden opportunity where everyone can enjoy the benefits.

Earning money could be really easy in this way.

So what are you waiting for?

Join the community and have a great opportunity in earning bundles of cash!

The Grapevine ads by nuffnang is a great system where bloggers can earn cash through the number of clicks obtained via your link!

This is one of the example of the ads : *click on me please!*

So what are you waiting for?

Go check it out alright?

Back to the topic of making money.

There's an event going on at the Bangsar Shopping Centre this weekend so make sure you all go check it out alright?

FYI I will be working on this Friday till Sunday there.

So make sure you don't lose the golden chance to meet up with me LOL.

For those who hates me: this will be the time where you can enjoy your consumers' right to tease, scold or fart in front of me.

Anyway, this is going to be a busy weekend and I hope I will not screw my assignment.

I feel so bad for today's work.

I hate it!

It is not fun to not know your group members well!

It is so hard to please everyone.

I hate it!

It is seriously hard for being a leader to lead someone that do not like you!

I know that.

I can feel it.

Arghhh screw assignment!

I need money and I need them desperately!

I love DiGi, don't you? =)

I'm a loyal user oh yeah~!

so friendly!

so wide!

Emelia Soh

2011-05-29T01:49:00.004+08:00

I'm bloody emo right now. I feel lonely again. You know that kind of feeling when it's midnight and you have no one to talk to. I really need someone to talk to. Not just friends. There're something that you wish to share with someone special. Even best friends can't understand your situation. Even those who know you well can't fulfill your eagerness.

For those who know me well, I'm sure you all know what I'm talking about right now.

Look at my hair!

How is it possible to find one with this bloody hair?

Oh God I'm so emo right now!!

Feel like changing Katy Perry's lyrics.

Love me...L...L...Love me! Infect me with your love and what the hell I'm nuts now!

I seriously need chocolate to cheer me up, or not.

Chocolate makes people fat.

Better not then. It will increase the difficulty in searching the special someone.

Perhaps a sweet dream can make me better.

Baby Adam, see you later =)

Take care ya Emelia Soh!

Get well soon =)

Just to get you to read this post by having you as the title!

No ICE, chicken and egg alright?

X.O.X.O

Movie Magic

2011-05-25T16:02:00.002+08:00

Went for movie last night. Johnny Depp's eyeliner and greasy skin tone are always his signature patterns in the movie. Captain Jack Sparrow's back in action doesn't bring too much impression to me. Perhaps these fancy fancy stuffs are not so attractive to me. The scene that I really enjoyed was just the mermaid killing scene. BLOODY pretty babes kill for their living, AWESOME! Penelope Cruz? Sexy as usual. But I like the mermaids more! Their scales go off on the ground, come back once they are in the water. Not to mention about the legs OMG. Syrena's leg is so damn long! She must be a model in real life I guess? I'm bloody in love with those cruel mermaids LOL. Anyway the story was uh-uhm.... Voodoo doll WTF. So not my style. I prefer action movies and comedies more. But it is way more worth it to watch an action movie in the cinema. The sound effects, actions and movements are so fucking amazing. Is like live scenes right in front of you!

The best I had in 2011 (so far) - Fast Five

How can you not watch Fast Five? Vin Diesel, Paul Walker, Dwayne Johnson and the bloody amazing Sung Kang! Look at the cast babe! How could you resist? The actions are amazing and Sung Kang? Come on. It's HAN! My HAN! His appearance is just so OMG. I actually screamed in the theater when he appeared. I was like "OMG HAN!!!!!!!!!!" So embarrassed LOL.

RED (2010)

I went for this movie because of Bruce Willis and Morgan Freeman. They are the legends and this movie was not that good that I expect it to be. But you know what? Still it is worth it although I have to see all those old folks fighting LOL.

The Expendables (2010)

Speaking of the legends! Each and every action star is in this movie! I was so surprised to see everyone in! OMG the strongest cast ever in action movies. Directed by THE Sylvester Stallone, starring Sylvester Stallone, Jason Statham and Jet Li, Eric Roberts, Steve Austin.... All the stars that can fight. I'm filled with goose bumps watching this movie as I'm so touched to see EVERYONE in. Arnold Schwarzenegger is in too! BLOODY AMAZING!

The A-Team (2010)

An action movie more than an action movie. You can burst into laughters watching this movie. That's how I love this movie. Also bloody amazing actors like Bradly Cooper! OMG I heart. Liam Neeson, I heart too.

These are some that I could recall. Life is busy these days and I guess I will have less time spent on movies. I'm so waiting for the Transporter series, the Fast and Furious series and more to come from Jason Statham. OH YEAH. Back on Earth for assignments, hell lot of assignments. *frown face*

I have to start my work or I can never watch more awesome movies.

I miss Agnes and the minions. *it's so fluffy I'm gonna die*

AGAIN?

2011-05-22T16:47:00.002+08:00

I used to fear nothing about our friendship but now that I realize we are not as close as before. Don't you feel that too? We used to chat everyday, talked about everything, crap nonsense.... Conversation in campus is never enough for us but what have made this happened? I no longer know what you are doing. I am no longer following your updates. You already have your own plans and the worst thing is I have zero knowledge about them! I'm so afraid. This FEAR is not good. I don't want our friendship to go from best friends to JUST FRIENDS. Maybe I've done something wrong? If it is so then please do tell me. I do not want history to happen again. I'm already tired enough facing problems regarding friendship. I do not want to be the last person to know about the end of a friendship.

The MAN

2011-05-14T18:15:00.003+08:00

This is a special post for that special person.

He is truly a one in a million friend who is always thinking of what's the best for his friends.

He is the one to organize everything in order so that everything is going according to plan.

He is the one who cares more than enough that he's always your priority to speak off when you are encountering problems.

He is the one to rely on whenever you are facing problems or difficulties in life.

He is the one who will always stand by your side no matter how.

He is the one that will call you in the middle of the night, just to send his warm regards.

He is the one who teaches his friends about values, friendships and wisdoms.

He is the one that makes you think about what's good for yourself.

He is THE MAN.

Happy 21st Cohen or Coke or Chow Wai Kit!

Have a great one!

Bright future is awaiting ahead!

Love you!

Friends remain forever when you know how to appreciate them as your friends.

I appreciate my friends and I hope that I can make friends for life.

I love my friends, more than before.

X.O.X.O

1.5 hours

2011-05-08T12:33:00.003+08:00

For those who are afraid of working: WORKING ain't hard.

I've been as a sales assistant in Mid Valley, unfortunately only for around 1.5 hours.

The salary was too low and I have to pay even more for transportation and food.

Thus, my supervisor asked me to quit and she has recommended me another awesome job.

The people at Carlo Rino are really a bunch of awesome people, they offer me with various suggestions on how I should arrange my job.

Well of course! Being a part-timer in a boutique is not worth it. You can't enjoy a single cent from your sales because you do not have the rights to ask for commission as a part-timer.

By the way, this is my best record so far, working for 1.5 hours wtf.

Anyway, I've managed to sell one wallet worth RM200 in an hour time, minus the time for briefing and training and chatting bla bla bla....

I know my strengths very well and one of them is to bluff, I mean communicate well with people.

I really enjoy the work there although I have to serve customers with their shoes off and on.

Too bad I have to quit.

It's not worth it for me to travel all the way to Mid Valley, pay for cab and food and earn only few bucks each day.

So the planning now is....

There's an interview arranged on Monday, in an event-based company!

Oh Yeah~

Event planning and roadshow is always my first choice!

Wish me luck peeps!

I might earn before you even notice it.

*allmoneycomemyhome allmoneycomemyhome allmoneycomemyhome*

Coach Signature Stripe Tote 15112 Khaki/Rose

2011-05-05T16:43:00.003+08:00

I'm happy and sad today.

This is my Year 1 Semester 3 and I'm taking mostly all Year 2 subjects.

I'm so happy with the progress, I save more time from graduation!

Things are now going according to plan, thank God and also my course coordinator who approved my application!

Yes this semester would be very heavy but I know I can cope with it!

I'm so sad as I need to pay the fees for my current semester.

Yes Year 2 subjects are way more expensive!

I need a job urgently to feed myself right now.

Oh God!

Anyway I'm selling this:

Coach Signature Stripe Tote 15112 - Khaki Rose

This is an original outlet piece from the States, original receipt available for prove.

Used 3 times only.

Excellent condition.

COD available in KL area.

Selling at RM 650 only. (Negotiable)

I'm not sure whether this is available in Malaysia but I've not seen one in Malaysia so far.

Please do leave a comment if you are interested.

You can also e-mail me at zyenyiwong@gmail.com for more details.

Hope to hear from you soon!

Loves.

Information for you my FRIEND, you know who you are

2011-05-04T23:40:00.004+08:00

There's a saying that "suicide is the most coward thing a person can do". Of course it's a form of ESCAPE from your current situation but who knows? This will bring you an even worse problem. Suicide is never a solution, only more and more problems will come. Feel stressed? Thought of ending your life?

I dare not to say people who committed suicide to be a coward person anymore after reading this:

各种自杀方式的状况和感想

1.割腕：

割的时候会比较痛，心里压力大，而且90%的人不知道正确位置和深度，白白留下伤痕。想自己身上划足够深的伤口，是一件非常容易半途而废的事情需要很大的耐心和毅力还有专业知识。由于血有自凝能力，大部分的伤口都容易出现自我结痂而止血，需要在原来伤口上再割一次。不怕疼的话，可以选择。此外，大多数割腕的下场是由于失血过多出现昏迷，血在昏迷后出现结痂，死没死成，大脑由于缺血成了植物人。。。

2. 安眠药：

很多人认为安眠药物痛苦，事实上吃安眠药最难受。药物会在进入半睡眠状态下出现胃部刺激而引发呕吐，因为神经被麻痹，人不能动，呕吐液体会进入肺部和鼻腔，引起巨大的呼吸痛苦和肺部灼烧感，人不能动，却要受煎熬15分钟上下（这就是所谓的可抢救时间）。。

3.毒药：

首先剂量是最大的难题，少了死不了,多了有副作用。什么叫副作用，就是抽搐，痉挛，呕吐，大小便失禁，便血，视觉市场，说胡话等，万一你还没死，却被人看到这个狼狈的样子。。。。而且还要看服毒的时候是否空腹，个人体质，毒药保存期，毒草老嫩，根据《西方医学》1989年12月（自己可以去查），服毒死亡的几率取决于人体排毒器官的老幼。中国传统的砒霜是4个小时左右死亡，并且在最后两个小时有极其剧烈的痉挛和腹泻、肤色变青。如果你40岁以下，为了你的形象，还是算了吧。。。

4.氰化钾：

柯南里面最常见的杀人灭口必备良药，一滴即致死，立马见效，效果嗷嗷好。味道嘛，跟你们喝的杏仁露差不多...

单独列出，很多人以为这东西不错。事实上，这个东西只要一点点，就会引起舌部烧伤和气管收缩。由于气管收缩，人会产生巨大的痛苦，口眼歪斜，流涎，然后会发出极其惨烈的尖叫声（不是人想叫，而是气管收缩，呼吸是的声音）此外，致死率不是那么高，07年出现过有人吞服三瓶子还被抢救回来的例子。。。

5.电击：

有一些工人有时常常被电击而致死，但有时又奇迹般的活过来了。但活下来的人有的瘫痪，或身体受到损害。现在大部分电力系统用保险丝或断电设备加以保护，因此在电流过大时会停止供电。至于高压线么，人会被立刻弹开滴，到时候生殖器官被烧伤别怪我没提醒你。。。

6.投水：

窒息的过程很长，维持意识达5分钟以上，途中伴有挣扎，惨叫，而且水温还会对临死的人带来巨大的刺激。形象会很差，人会被肿的面目全非，腐臭不堪。。。

7.枪杀：

理论上，枪杀最直接，因为伤口难处理。大部分都是因为伤口流血而死。在1945年美国在日本的占领军走进东条元帅府去逮捕他时（东条英机元帅是日本的战时首相），他当时让夫人在胸前划了一个园圈，标出心脏的位置，当军队走进前门时，他便用 0.32口径的枪开枪。他严重受伤，但未打中心脏所以没有死。并活下来作为战犯进行审判。三年后被处以绞刑。医学文献上报导过有一个人他自杀。他用了 0.32的枪对着胸口没死，再一个0.2枪对着另一个太阳穴同时开枪而最后死亡。理论上，枪越大就越有效，用空尖头子弹可以造成更大伤口。口径为0.22 的枪需要往往开火二次。无疑会使身体遭受很大痛苦，流很多的血。没死的话，还有一个缺点，伤口往往会留下很大的疤痕。。。（这部分资料参考了1986年美国医学周刊，不是完全原创）

8.上吊：

恩，貌似大家喜欢这个简单的办法。但是绳子的牢固是个问题，香港 1991 年曾有记录上吊未遂而摔成瘫痪的例子。但是我这里郑重提醒各位，上吊引起的意识消失可达15分钟！所以上吊前请想清楚。而且上吊被救下来的比率是最高的。另外说一句，上吊而死的人会本能的出现剧烈挣扎，而导致裤子掉下来情况并不少见。由于人死后血液流向下方，多数男性尸体会出现勃起现象而女性因挣扎掉落裤子几率更大。。。说道这里，还有谁想上吊？

9.一氧化碳：

说实话，这个比较棘手，因为比较难死。川端康成是80多岁了，在获得诺贝尔文学奖四年之后，便把煤气管直接塞进了自己的喉咙才死。现在城市里面的天然气大都经过处理，毒性降低太多了。一般情况下，就算你关一晚上，你也最多就昏迷，失禁，甚至变成植物人。建议想死的话先饿自己几天。。。

10. 跳楼：

理论上，最快。实际上，人不会那么快丧失意识。必须确保是头部撞地才可以保证死亡。否则，就算内脏冲-击受伤，也起码承受2-3分钟的痛苦(神经残留现象）。而且死状不雅，还可能伤及无辜。万一摔在玻璃渣，仙人掌，铁丝网等特殊缓冲物上，恭喜你，痛不欲生。世界纪录保持者是克斯洛伐克上空10155米处发生爆炸后没摔死的空姐塞尔维亚前空姐维斯娜•乌洛维奇，她头骨裂成两半，三根椎骨粉碎，手腿全部骨折，但她却奇迹般地存活了下来。。。所以跳楼死也不是特赞成。。。

11.刎颈：

切对了位置，血会喷到2米高，切错了位置，你就成鸭脖子了。别相信电视里那套，自刎需要的武器，一般剑啊刀啊是无法砍动脖子旁肌肉的。需要用小刀，准确插入然后横向逐步锯开。一般人我不认为有这个能耐。。。忘了说一句，必须同时隔断动脉和静脉，单独一根可以让你受长达半小时的折磨。

12.切腹：

日本人专利，中国人别学了。刀子插入时候会引起腹膜休克而痛的无法继续，肠子还会流出来，大概流出一桶吧，如果谁要这么变态，请先告诉我，我来参观下，反正不切断全部肠子前你死不了。。。

13.自焚：

活生生地烧死，痛苦程度可想而知。。。

奉劝玩自焚的，一定要确保烧死，否则被救活了反而让你生不如死

14.绝食：

我还没见过绝食而死的！没死的都属于减肥！！不过据说法国有记载90多天饿死的。。。李叔同在虎跑寺进行过21天禁食，结束后自己感觉神清气爽、脱胎换骨，并直接导致了后来他的出家。

Again living a life is difficult but if you dare to commit suicide with one the methods stated above, why not using the courage to live on?

May 1, 2011

2011-05-03T00:11:00.001+08:00

Labor's Day

Hitler

Osama bin Laden.

God bless the world.

We need a better future!

PEACE.

Another Chapter of My Life.

2011-05-02T18:25:00.004+08:00

Call me lazy or what, I did not update my blog during the owh-so-long 1 week semester break.

As usual, I have to work at the shop during this entire week and trust me it ain't fun. Waking up at 4.45 a.m is not what a normal human should do. Instead, a normal one would sleep till 1p.m LOL.

Boring semester break with boring routine, shop and Genting. LAME.

Life's difficult.

There're lots of disturbance and difficulties all the time.

Perhaps you might call them ACCIDENTS but I prefer them as CHALLENGES.

It feels good when you're about to overcome them.

Things doesn't go according to plan, as usual.

The changes are so unexpected and sometimes we are barely able to cope with them.

Thus stress is produced.

That's how your body reacts towards these situations.

OK no more psychology stuff, back to the topic.

Things are not going according to plan, again.

The timetable changes and most of the classes clash.

That means we have to re-consider on which subject to take this semester.

Good news, I'm taking Year 2 subjects already.

Woo Hoo.

My Year 1 Semester 3 will start officially tomorrow.

God bless this semester.

Thank God for the guidance and the grades for my previous semester.

I will not say it's good, bad neither.

My average.

That's the correct description for my pointers this semester.

Border for first class honour.

FYI first class honour in UCSI is CGPA 3.75.

It's hard.

The marking scheme is very strict here.

85 marks means 85 marks.

no extra 1 mark for the A+ grade.

No matter how close you are with the lecturer.

1 mark to 4.0?

Dream!

3.7 for you.

This happened, AGAIN!

Is this a curse or what?

I'm so close to A+!

SHOOT.

Anyway, at least I manage to maintain my pointer around 3.8.

Having my first internship at the end of this year as well.

Better pray that everything goes smoothly.

Life's difficult but I believe I can live a life.

Year 1 Semester 3 in Mass Communication - A new chapter.

WTH

2011-04-19T18:44:00.003+08:00

Things can be out of control sometimes, but all the time for me and my babes. I wonder why there's always a problem when it comes to a girls' trip. Transportation problem. Great. Can you imagine that? Everything's set out there and now we have no car for the journey? WTH. This is so bad that I now do not have the mood to write. BOO.

Read a famous blog just now and it says "do you hungry?"

Reliable? HA-HA-HA.

Read another blog and it says "I'm still single."

WTF you are as horny as a buffalo.

Ridiculous.

That's none of my business WTF.

I'm mad and upset now.

BULLSHIT.

DOGSHIT.

CATSHIT.

CHICKENSHIT.

You happy?

Growth

2011-04-15T02:28:00.002+08:00

I'm too boring that I've decided to do this again. I think I did this few years back and I might have different answers now then. Here's the link for my first attempt. Now let's do it again. I get to know more about myself after comparing the difference.

Please be patient to read this till the end if you want to know more about me =)

A - AVAILABLE: Yes
B - BIRTHDAY: December
C - CRUSHING ON : Still him? =(
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Green tea
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: Younger sister
F - FAVORITE SONG: All songs from baby Adam =)
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Gummy bears
H - HOMETOWN: Puchong
I - IN LOVE WITH: Everyone/everything that deserves it
J - JUGGLE: Did it in NS, fail though... can't take 3 balls in one hand, it's super hard!
K - KILLED SOMEONE: Insects and worms and disgusting people
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: Across country OMFG
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Oreo =)
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 2
O - ONE WISH: Jesus conquers the world! OH YEAH!
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: Evian
R- REASON TO SMILE: LOVE
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: Not Like the Movies - Katy Perry
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 0935
V - VEGETABLE(S): Broccoli
W - WORST HABIT: Bath very late =P..
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: Knees
Y – YOYOS ARE: Yo-able
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Saggitarus

Random Questions About You:
Spell your name without vowels: WNG ZYNY
What color do you wear most? : Black
What are you listening to? : I Don't Want to Miss a Thing - Aerosmith
Are you happy with your life right now? : Yes
What is your favorite class in school/college? : Introduction to Journalism (this semester) =)
Are you outgoing? : Very
Favorite pair of shoes? : ALL
Where do you wish you were right now? : Bed

THE CANS:
Can you dance? : Yes and No, depends on how much liquor I take =)
Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth? : Yes
Can you whistle? : Yes
Write with both hands? : No
Walk with your toes curled: Yes

THE DO'S:
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: Yes
Do you believe in miracles?: Yes
Do you believe in magic?: No
Love at first sight?: Maybe
Do you think there's a Satan: Yes
Do you believe in Santa?: No
Do you know how to swim?: Floating?
Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows : No

THE HAVES:
Have you ever been on a plane?: Yes
Have you ever asked someone out?: Yes
Have you ever been asked out by someone?: Yes
Have you ever been to the ocean?: Yes
Have you ever painted your nails? : Yes

THE WHATS:
What is the temperature outside? : 27 Celcius?
What radio station do you listen to? : Red FM
What was the last restaurant you ate at?: Dim Sum at an unknown restaurant LOL
What was the last thing you bought?: Secret
Who was the last person you took a picture of?: Kian Loong and Kian Wei

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out? : Yes
Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Yes
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder? :Yes
Ever cried over the opposite sex?: Yes
Do you cry when you get an injury? : Yes

HAPPY SECTION.
Are you a happy person? : Yes
What can make you happy? : Family, friends, love, God, good food, nice bags and shoes etc.
Do you wish you were happier? : Yes
Can music make you happy? : Baby Adam's music works every time =)

LOVE SECTION.
How many times have you had your heart broken? : Haha I shall keep this to myself
Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them? : No

LOOK AT ME.
What is your current hair color?: Dark brown
Current piercings?: Ears
Have any tattoos?: No
Eye color?: Dark brown

IN A GIRL/GUY
Favorite eye color: Not important
Short or long hair: Short
Height: Tall
Best clothing: Neat yet fashionable

HAVE YOU EVER.
Been to jail: No
Mooned someone: No
Thrown up in a store: No
Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today : Yes

THIS OR THAT.
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonald's or Burger King: McD
Single or Group Dates: I need a date seriously~!
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
Strawberries or Blueberries: Blueberries
Meat or Veggies: Vege
TV or Movie: Movie
Guitar or Drums?: Drums
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Chinese or Mexican: Chinese
Cheerios or Corn Flakes: Corn Flakes
Pie or Cake: Cake

OK seriously it's just some daily stuff and I don't think it helps you to know me. A little maybe? Whatever. I'm just too boring. Take this if you are boring too =)

Another random fact about me: I'm hungry now. 3am! Sleeping time =)

BB in ICU =(

2011-04-13T10:21:00.002+08:00

What the hell are the first 3 words that I can give you.

Slept around 3.30am and when I woke up this is what BabyBerry shows:

Reload software: 552

No other response from that.

I'm dead!

My PC can't detect BabyBerry as well wtf.

I tried to Google for this but honestly those solutions can't help!

Connect, battery out 30 seconds, battery in again, still can't detect!

Battery out, SIM card and Memory card out, in again, no response!

Stupid!!!!

Do you know how people act when they seemed to be nervous and freak out?

I went to my friends, spam their fb wall for help and even texting them using others' phone.

What to do? I seriously can't live without BB.

CHILL babe CHILL.

I cool down a bit, trial and error and finally PC detected BabyBerry.

Update......

Thought everything will be fine...

Fine? Kind of?

I never backup my files OMG.

Contacts gone.

BBM contacts gone.

Media files gone. My Adam Lambert playlist sobs sobs.

Applications gone. Even FB wtf.

DUH~

CHILL.

At least BabyBerry is back alright?

This is what I did:

Connect BB to desktop software via USB
Battery out while connection is still on (although PC can't detect it)
Disconnect BB from PC
Wait for 30 seconds
Reconnect BB without battery
Battery in
PC detects BB
Update whatever possible for your BB
Wait for around 1 hour for the updates to complete
Brand new BB

Oh God I hate this. But never mind, BB is back in action!

I just slept for 5 frigging hours and I'm now busy working on restoring information for my BB wtf.

It's around noon now wtf.

I'm hungry like hell wtf.

Final advice: DO BACK UP FOR YOUR BLACKBERRY

Just Another Boring Update bla bla bla...

2011-04-09T00:37:00.004+08:00

Have not taken any good pictures lately, I just have too much time to rush rather than to play with my camera. Last few weeks was seriously mad. 9 assignments due in 2 weeks, can you believe that? Anyway when those were finally over, I don't feel like blogging pulak. I'm just too tired of typing and justifying those word documents.

It's the end of the semester and I will be sitting for my second semester's final examination few days later. I really hope to score and get good grades though. UCSI's grading is so EFFING hard to reach wtf. 86 marks for 4.0 GPA? It's so freaking hard. How on Earth can I get that? OMG. Especially Basic Photography wtf. The lecturer seems to forget that we are taking BASIC Photography classes instead of OMG SO DAMN FUCKING PROFESSIONAL PHOTOGRAPHY. His expectations is so high that we could never reach that! Arghh.... This is so subjective, what I think to be beautiful doesn't necessarily looks good to you right? Just like Lady Gaga or peanut butter, not everyone likes them but you can't say they sucks. Still they are good alright? Or maybe Adam Lambert and seaweed, they are still awesome even if you hate them.

I'm so lost right now and I'm trying so hard to score well for my paper. Hope that the grades can still remain high. *fingers crossed*~!

One of my photographs: PORTRAIT.

This is my mate Emelia. FB inbox me if you wish to know her LOL. I will ask for her permission then =)

2011-03-29T22:50:00.002+08:00

It's already Week 13 and I'm so sorry to left my darl for so long a time.

These few weeks was a true torture as assignments came after assignments and when you have some of them done? More of them came. GREAT.

I guess I shall write a new post but I'm not in the mood. Seriously I don't know what to tell in a sudden. Maybe I haven't write for a very long period of time that I ran out of idea. I don't know what I'm talking about.

Pictures should be up tomorrow night as we are going to an awesome place for lunch =)

Lucky Enough =)

2011-03-18T00:43:00.003+08:00

It's just another tired day with assignments and tasks. Paperwork is definitely a burden but at least I can still control that. Still there's a lot of dramas going on around and I'm not sure whether I'm enjoying the show or not, basically I have no time for these. People around us are showing their true colors and I'm kind of proud to say that I have friends with beautiful colors! Life's just filled with disappointment sometimes but I'm glad to have my babes around. I've seen some of them losing their best friends, being selfish is definitely one of the reason that tears them apart. What are friends when it comes to assignment? Some of them can just dump their friends behind when it comes to assignment grouping. This is bad. Some of them aren't working because the leader is their friend. What is this? Some of them left their friends as they are in a relationship? WTF.

We often missed this little things in life. We often forgot to see what we've got and we are complaining instead. I never realize I am this lucky to have good friends. Yes I might not have friends during my high school life but I'm glad that I've made some friends for life during my National Service and in my university. I never knew that friends are this important until I met them. I never knew that I can share this much with them. I never knew that I can actually be a person to rely on. I never knew that I can be on someone's priority list. I never knew that I can mean this much to someone who is not biologically connected together. I enjoys the "count-Zyenyi-in-for-our-plans" feeling. I'm really enjoying a life right now!

Thank God for all these arrangements that He has for me. Thank you for awarding them into my life. I just feel blessed. God knows that every minor thing can bring a dramatic change. He always knows what's good for me.

Thank you for being my friends.

BTW,

Bryant, IMYA. =)

Swarovski made me spent

2011-03-14T01:45:00.003+08:00

Went to meet up with baby sister at Mid Valley in the education fair. Surprisingly UCSI was having the biggest booth, proud dude. LOL. Anyway from that we can see that which universities are having a higher status. I'm not talking about UCSI but some other universities like Taylor's and INTI. These 3 universities had their BIG booth at the centre of the exhibition, UCTI as well. Those slightly at the side will be Segi, Limkokwing and KDU wtf. After all it's not about the status of the university (a bit maybe?), it's about how much they are willing to pay for the exhibition.

Anyway Mid Valley was crowded and I managed to meet some of my high school juniors OMG. Didn't talk much with them though. My main purpose is to shop =)

Manage to get myself flats after struggling for such a long time, "sorry miss, this is the only size left" or "sorry miss we don't have this of your size". DUH. I know I have huge feet but I need shoes too. Thought of getting them at Vincci initially but no size wtf. No choice have to head to Nose and luckily managed to get a nice one, the price is double of Vincci's though =(

Get myself Swarovski too =)

It's me and my roomie's birthday Be@rbrick.

Didn't thought of buying it till the salesperson told us that “它们的眼睛是Swarovski的。”

Then me and roomie's eyes went *bling!* "OK! Buy!"

After all we are both "brandoholic" LOL.

OMG their eyes are Swarovski crystals =)

Love it~

Tomorrow will be a long day with classes and meetings.

Did I just say tomorrow?

I mean later, in 6 hours time wtf.

Nights~

I love Swarovski.

You don't have to read this

2011-03-12T21:18:00.003+08:00

Finally I feel a bit scared of assignments and me and babes decided to go out shooting for our photography class assignment. Went to KLCC as there's a park and we think that we might be able to grab some nice pictures that fulfill the lecturer's requirement. We did! Anyway luck was by my side the whole day I guess. Managed to get myself a nice handbag at i-Setan, 50% off! I love that bag very much and I will use it more often than baby Prada I guess. Baby Prada is awesome but it definitely needs good rest, not too over exposed. =)

Seriously I can't upload any pictures here as the internet connection is just way beyond awesome. No worries. I will do it during the next post.

Psychology group meeting tomorrow.

Preparing proposal for the event on Monday.

Study Skills campaign meeting on Monday.

Journalism group assignment meeting on Monday.

Works to go on next week.

Oh MAK~!

Better go now. Have to work hard on assignments.

Sorry for the lame post.

How I wish I can cry with you :'(

2011-03-10T22:27:00.005+08:00

I have no idea on how many times I've write about love and relationship here.

Maybe it ranked the second after my daily life and friendship?

Anyway have another perception on love AGAIN today. We all know that hate is the opposite of love but we can actually love and hate the same person at the same time. What that means then? The more you love, the more you hate him or her. It's just "not like the movies" as Katy Perry sang. Why life can't be as simple as the movies? The girl met her prince, end of discussion. Why is life that tough?

Good luck to those lovers out there. Please treat your love ones better, they can't afford to lose you, no matter how hard sometimes.

Even a strong and tough girl will fall deeply for love.

If you know what I mean.

I will still think of him sometimes.

After 2 damn years? WTF.

I miss him.

Anyway good luck babe, you know you can get over it. You are so unique and you will find someone that appreciates you.

These words might be bullshit but time cures.

I will be here, no worries.

I can supply tissue as well.

You said your life turns better when you meet us. I hope you continue to live this life too.

I can be your light, I can be your hope.

I can be your pillow, I can be your blanket.

I can be your bandage, I can be your everything!

I'm your friend.

Cheers babe!

2011-03-08T23:53:00.003+08:00

I'm seriously not in the mood of blogging.

I hate expressing my feelings here nowadays.

I've been through so many shitty stuffs and I'm now sitting here, complaining to a computer wtf!

Can I just get a bf to care of me?

I need to be pampered sometimes.

I'm not that tough.

I'm not that strong.

I need a shoulder to lay on too.

Anyway life sucks these days and I don't even want to talk about it.

Everything that's under me and Em's control were going well.

The rest? Sucks to the max.

Don't even want to think about it.

And for you that has hurt my babe Em so much: GO DIE LA~!

Who is you to have the authority or what so ever that you called that to cheat on your friend?

You don't have to lie to your friend.

I thought you are a good guy but in fact you are jerk-er than those ultimate jerks.

Shame on you to be classified as the good guy.

You don't deserve the name.

GO DIE.

DIE with your car as well.

I hate today.

A lot!

2011-03-03T20:03:00.001+08:00

I hate myself so much.

I think I screwed my assignment.

I don't want to think about it.

I hate today.

About today?

2011-03-01T22:52:00.002+08:00

I've never thought of modelling in my life. Modelling dude! Anyway I have the opportunity to do so for the Indian Culture week of UCSI where me and babe Em are going to be modelling in traditional Indian costumes. YUM! I guess I really need a super thick eyeliner to enlarge my eyes. You do realize that they have massive eyes right? =)

Anyway there's an assignment due on this Thursday and I still haven't start on it yet. I'm so busy promoting the events for IWD yet the committees in higher position are just sitting there, waiting for durian to fall off from the tree wtf. We are walking across the entire university and managed to sell a couple of tickets while they are sitting at the booth, expecting people to put money into their pockets. It's not that hard to approach people, you can know more friends in fact! We actually bumped into 2 ME's and you know what? They even asked their friends to join the party after having a wonderful conversation with us! I don't flirt you know, I just play around with words LOL.

Oh shoot I guess I shall take a shower and start for my assignment today. FYI there's a rehearsal for the fashion show tomorrow evening and pasar malam wtf. Assignment due on Thursday morning. Make up and stuffs in the morning, class at 9.30, that means I have to finish it by tomorrow night? Great. I love assignments. Anyway I think I screwed today's midterm paper. Whatever..... =)

A nice break before continuing sh--ssignments

2011-02-27T14:20:00.003+08:00

This is what you do when your brain is halfway dead. I usually Google and search for some cool stuffs to boost up a bit. Tired of assignments? How about taking 10-15 minutes to blog? Result! I'm actually more productive after that.

OMG I'm so outdated and now only I know about Perler Beads! Perler Beads is an artwork where we can design and create a product by combining the beads together. All you need to do is to purchase the set (obviously) and follow these 4 easy steps! 5 in fact. =)

Create your design by placing the beads on the Perler peg board.
Cover the beads with ironing paper and iron them gently to fuse the beads. Remember to do it gently! You don't want to lose your design.
Lift the design from the board once it's cool.
Flip the design over and iron the other surface of it. Remember not to over-iron them or else the beads will ran out of shape.
Show off your design!

Here are some cute designs that you might want to try.

Nintendo series. Super Mario, Pacman... CUTE!

Gameboy OMFG. I love this so much!

You can even try some 3D designs!

Ferris wheel. How adorable =)

Boo Boo car (I'm not acting cute okay...)

Anyway if you are that kind of person who are really into arts then you should try these. I don't mind having them as present too. I think I shall get myself 1 set and I'll work on designing a LV Speedy key chain for myself mwahaha...

Visit Perler Beads official website if you wish to find out more!

I have to chao for assignments.

See ya!

Photo credits to best friend G =)

The Babes

2011-02-26T11:26:00.005+08:00

Recently I'm very into bags that are Louis Vuitton Speedy shape-alike. You know the feeling when you are carrying them? Heaven. You'll look more elegant and chic, even with Polo-T and sandals.

Gucci Joy Medium Boston. OH YEAH.

Burberry Nova Check Bowling Bag (which was once in my wishlist)

Monogram Canvas looks nice on a Speedy 30 =)

And here comes the best part...

LV Mini Lin Speedy 30! You are definitely in my wishlist *hearts*

All of them look nice in fact. But I couldn't afford them after spending for my baby Prada =(

Should I just get a bag of this shape from Charles and Keith, Vincci or Nose? Aww.... I don't want to spend so much on bags.

P/S: I can wait till my birthday. It's on December in case you do not know =)

Yes I love bags but I love shoes more. It's time for a new pair of heels girl. You have not buy heels in 6 months wtf. I'm pretty amazed by myself for not spending on heels nowadays. You should see how I shop when I'm with my sister. I'm not a shopaholic *ahem*, I just enjoy shopping. In fact, who doesn't? =)

BabyBerry got style?

2011-02-25T20:16:00.005+08:00

BlackBerry is always my love and I don't feel like changing my phone although this is already an antique. Curve 8520 is among the earliest models of BB but it's so cute! I can still get some wonderful applications and BBM is way beyond awesome. I think I'll still use a BB if I really have to buy a new phone. This is how mine looks like: A black BlackBerry. Awh babyberry is so cute.

But since I've used it for over a year, it's time to make some changes! I've used silicon, plastic, metal cases and recently I'm into Melkco's leather casing, especially red ones! Melkco is also selling casings for iPhone, HTC, Samsung and some other smartphones. Also casings for iPad, netbooks and GPS. You can get a Melkco at a low price of RM90, with warranty! I've been using my red Jacka type leather snap cover for 5 months and it's still looking good. As you all know I'm very into leather, I love the texture and the smell so much! Of course I'm not that cruel, this is man-made leather. And my casing is still so firm and the leather smells so good! Anyway I still feel like doing some changes on babyberry. Let's see what I can do. Hmm.... Oh! Change the housing maybe?

Option 1: All red, even for lens screen and keypad.

Option 2: Partial red, black for lens screen.

Option 3: A pinkberry! Grey for the keypad. (It's not that bad Cohen Chow) =)

Not even an option: A purpleberry wtf.

Totally OUT. Gold? No, thanks.

Personally I think that the second option is OKAY but the original black is nice too. Hmm... I think I shall stick with a black BlackBerry. It looks and sounds better right? the REAL BLACKberry. LOL. Anyway you can visit Haus of BIB aka BlackBerry Housing if you feel like changing your BB housing, it is located in Bangsar, KL. You can actually find a good place for a cup of coffee while waiting for your new BB to be ready.

Please do provide me the information if you manage to find any beautiful housing combinations for Curve 8520.

Photo credits to my best friend Google and Haus of BIB.

Again it's another weekend in KL. Shopping, shall I?

End of Week 8

2011-02-25T01:04:00.004+08:00

wtf it's already end of week 8! Time flies, like those annoying houseflies.

Again I'm gonna talk about assignments. Presentation slides are done and I have to work on paperworks now. I don't want my group to be good, I want us to be the best! They are awesome in fact, so I guess it shouldn't be a problem =) I shall complete it by tomorrow noon so that I can work on another group assignment, as well as the another-another assignment LOL.

Anyway next week will be kind of free with only 1 midterm and 1 assignment due. Yay. But have to work on the wtf event which will be held from the 7th. Am so looking forward for it, Em and I are going to create a legend LOL. Hope so... Anyway if you still have no idea on what's going on, the Social Science and Liberal Arts Association (SSLAA) of UCSI is organizing the International Women's Week starting from 7th March. Talks about women rights and responsibilities will be given, selling booths will be going on, as well as exhibitions and dance partay...! VIP's are invited to give talks and sign autographs mwahaha. Feel like doing manicure? We will be inviting the professionals to do them for you, at a cheaper price! Not forget to mention about fashion prowl and street magic. WOO HOO. Feel like coming for the Dance Night? All you have to do is to "Dress to Impress"! We have great emcees and awesome DJ, Jose in da house! Anyway this event is organized not only to celebrate women's day, but also for charity purpose. Part of our incomes will be donated to MAKNA. What a meaningful event! Oh God I'm trying my very best to LOVE this event. Let's embrace the work done by women, the architects of the century!

After 2 horrendous midterms....

2011-02-23T14:57:00.008+08:00

I really feel like whacking people right now. Not enough sleep causing me to face difficulties in writing essays for my midterm wtf. That's what you get when you have 2 midterms in one day, when you spent too much time studying the theories and facts in Psychology, sacrificing both your time and your face. Pimples wtf. Anyway I think I did badly for my Expo paper. The whole essay was like fooking-shoot. Tonnes of repetition of words: "causing", "eventually", "actually", "leads to", wtf. But I think I did kinda well for Psycho, whatever.

This week is filled with meetings. One to go at 3 p.m today, another 3 tomorrow and 1 on Friday. BOO YA~ I like meetings! Err... Can I eat my own words? Just like Em did most of the time LOL. Anyway I'm so happy looking at the pictures I've got for my journalism assignment. I'm doing a cover on Grammy 2011, fashions and highlights of the show.

The opening is jaw-dropping-awesome~!

Personally think that Jaden Smith is way better than JB

The legendary burning Rihanna and watching Eminem =)

Hot baby Adam on red carpet. He did dressed up sexily =)

OMG beautiful Katy

*ahem* dressed like J.Lo

What is this dear Nicki? FAIL

OK it's time to work on assignments.

I love you Google. We'll remain best friends forever. Promise =)

By the way the title of this post do remind me of Mr. Kang. Awh......

Banjir assignments? Listen to them =)

2011-02-21T23:04:00.003+08:00

Thought of "rediscovering" the songs in my Media Player as I was repeating the same songs these days and I'm re-addicted to Malaysian production. Well not necessarily Malaysian production but the songs performed by local singers, they're kind of awesome too =)

My all time favorite: Here in My Home - Malaysian Artistes for Unity
Talented singer and composer Wu Jiahui's 我疯你 and 虽然我愿意
Schoolmate Anthony Chang's 倔强爱着你，对手，几比几 and 皇帝（万岁万岁万万岁 LOL）
Yise 罗忆诗's 来不及
Tedd 曾国辉's 一百岁，谁都想感到被爱 and so much more, basically everything from him is nice =)
Will 黄威尔's 爱与不爱
Last but not least GEMILANG by the legendary Jaclyn Victor

Now only you realize that Malaysian singers are really good? I had them in my playlist long time ago. Oh ya not forget to mention Rynn Lim and Andrew Tan, Nicholas Teo and Eric Lim as well. They are doing well in Taiwan I guess... =)

Go Malaysia! I think you sometimes BOLEH.

UCSI boleh? BOLEH! Boleh menyebabkan pelajarnya mati dalam banjir assignments, presentations dan tests!

Chao... I'm jumping into the banjir =)

Here in My Home is awesome! *hearts*

Yes, it's a boring weekend

2011-02-19T16:51:00.002+08:00

It's been forever since I last do my nails and since I'm going for my grandma's birthday party this Sunday, why not do them? Thought of doing something dark, just like what Em did for me during baby Adam's concert. But the manicurist suggested me to try something lighter, more feminine and at the same time making my hands look fairer and cleaner. So... I've made my decision to do it this way...

Sorry for the bad quality picture, it was captured using a camera phone. Don't expect too much. It's actually light purple for the base, white for the 3D flowers with pink stones at the centre and white stones all around. Oh ya I did them on my own nails instead of extension. I guess I have to be extra careful from now on. DUH. What a boring weekend. I will not study for sure. Assignments? Don't feel like doing it too. How la.....

Another weekend?

2011-02-18T21:07:00.002+08:00

Again the stupid leader is dragging everyone behind. Babe was so mad that she nearly whack the table I suppose? I just can't define her. She's a banana yet a typical Chinese. wtf. She don't even dare to take risk even though everyone is going against her. WOW. Luckily we managed to oppose her ideas and she was like: "Okay lur...", agree. Anyway the event is postponed and I will have more time to work on it. 2 midterm papers next week, 1 presentation and 1 midterm on the following week. I love them!

Anyway will be kind of free tonight. I guess I shall watch Grammy 2011 then. But how about tomorrow? Also whole day free. Don't feel like going out these days, outing is kind of tiring for me now. I guess the female-menstrual-shit is coming? Or I'm getting older? ftw. Perhaps I shall study for the midterm papers during the weekend? So not my style. Whatever. I shall just enjoy sleeping then.

Oh God I'm just so tired and I don't know why. Luckily the assignment meeting was OK and we managed to come up with the desirable topic. Thanks Em babe for the wonderful contribution. The ideas were superb. omfg photo shoot! When shall we do it? Not now definitely, I'm extremely sleepy. By the way I really hate that fucking-annoying-fake-pretending-to-be-innocent-bitch. Please keep your itchy ass to yourself. BOO.

Goodnight. Can't imagine I'm sleeping at 9.30pm. wtf.

与主同行

2011-02-18T00:18:00.003+08:00

元宵已过，忙碌的人们依旧忙碌，这个特别的日子似乎没有带来太多影响。如果有的话，大家或许都把焦点放在抛柑这有趣的活动上吧！有多少人察觉到新年已过了呢？就算他们察觉到新年已过，有多少人为此感到惋惜或不舍呢？又有多少人已为新的一年设下目标和方向？

回想去年发生的一切，我发觉我成长了不少。或许经历低潮真的能使人成长吧！我能把事情看得更透彻了、也懂得在困境中寻求出路、更懂得凡事感恩；因为我了解幸福并不是必然的、只有努力地耕耘，才能够得享甜美的果实。很多人都把“幸福”和“顺利”当成是理所当然的，他们认为自己配得享有这一切，却忘了是谁把这一切赐下。但是，当困难来临时，他们就像一只被蛇捆绑着的老鼠：无助、动弹不得。终于，他们想起了那能够帮助他们的力量，并恳切地祈求祂的帮助。然而，得救后的他们又是否能够铭记这份恩典呢？不完全吧！他们只会回到那“理所当然”的境界，继续享有那美好的恩典。于是，那伟大的力量又被抛诸脑后，直到下一次的困难来临...

我相信许多弟兄姐妹都在经历此困境吧！我们知道神是如此地爱我们、我们也如此地坚信着。这就是危险之处啊！许多信主多年的基督徒都抱有这样的思想：“神是如此地爱我们，祂必定会看顾我前面的道路，以致我不会跌到。就算风浪再大，祂也能使我安然度过。” 于是，我们把每件事都当成是神爱我们的表现，我们把神对我们的爱看成是理所当然的，我们总以自己为中心：“神啊！请赐给我...”，或 “神啊！我知道你是爱我的，请帮助我...” 我们一昧地向神求，却忘了回报祂的爱。是的，祂必回应我们所求的；但是还有多少人记得向神道谢呢？还有多少人懂得感恩的道理呢？神的恩典并不是理所当然的！祂有权利剥削已赐给你我的一切，甚至将你完全摧毁！为什么祂在知道你没有怀着感恩的心接受的同时，仍不停地赐予你一切的恩典？因为祂爱你！你呢？你将如何回应神的爱？不要再把一切看成是理所当然了！不要再一昧的接受了！我们必须回应神的爱啊！

当你处在世界的顶端时，请不要把神遗忘。不要把祂停留在你失意的那段时期，请记得把神也带上，因祂必赐给你更丰厚的恩典。同样的，神在你落魄时扶了你一把，让你能大步向前行。请不要忘了邀请祂与你同行，因为有祂在的地方必有希望、有祂在的地方必有光芒。有基督在心中，你必能战胜黑暗，安然度过风雨。紧记，我们必须时时与主同行；不要把祂遗忘在后，因祂从不放弃我们。祂永远在我们需要祂时给与帮助，那信实的神是永不改变的！

祂必为我们遮挡风雨，使我们能勇敢往前行。

祂必带领我们前面的道路，确保我们正往正确的方向前进。

祂必与我们同行，时时刻刻保守着我们。

祂必赐下恩典，因祂爱我们。

No Boundaries

2011-02-16T22:32:00.003+08:00

Today is a good day as one of the assignments is submitted! Too bad the lecturer assigned us with the second one. Not only one, but two! One is from Study Skills and Employability, another one on Expository Writing. Yay! I heart assignments so badly I just wanna snog them. BOO. Anyway went for a karaoke session with babes and it was kinda fun. Not very fun as my voice was so FLAT today. It just sounds so DONALD DUCK wtf. I can sing in fact! Maybe the cough is coming back wth. Better don't =(

Anyway seriously feel like clubbing after the karaoke. I'm sure babe feel the same way too. Rihanna, Kelly Clarkson, Eminem, Adam Lambert. How can you not feel like going to Maison's or MOS after listening to them? Oh God I miss drinking. I do. I'm not a bad girl, I drink occasionally. As in like, only with family or close friends. omfg am listening to baby Adam. I will never get bored of it. He's so HOT, voted the best-hair and best-dressed for Grammy's 2011. Also the best artist on Twitter, I am following him! *He says "woohoo" too!* The charity was a success and the funds are still increasing.

Anyway I have completed the homework and now I shall enjoy watching movie. But I really don't feel like stopping baby Adam from the media player. How la~~~

P/S: Photos should be up any moment. See you guys on Facebook =)

And you had enough.... searching for love

And you missed the touch of someone new.

*Piano, keyboard and stuff*

*more and more to go*

*electronic guitar as well*

And you had enough..... searching for love... Ah...

and you missed the touch of someone new.

Soaked to the bones, sinked like a stone.

I will take you home, it's not the first time,

it's not the worst crime

Our souls will be okay =)

Damn I can type fast! =)

Seconds, hours, so many days....

I guess I shall continue with baby Adam instead of the movie! Woohoo~

My Date =)

2011-02-15T09:37:00.003+08:00

I'm so gonna have a heart attack today.

Reason 1: I have no valentine for this valentine's and everyone is wishing me HVD wtf.

Reason 2: Some of my group members still haven't send me their work. I'm sure that I made my words very clear!

Reason 3: I got the greatest secret in the world. A total of 2 today! I guess I'll continue to expect the unexpected then.

What the hell is going on? I thought our assignment group is perfect. Not perfect but it's good enough to score well. But now only we realize that there are actually some passengers a.k.a sleeping partners in the group. Is it too late for us to figure it out? Sad case =(

Then speaking for another assignment, I'm still your leader although I treat you as my friend! DAMN IT! Argh I'm so friggin' annoyed by the postpone of the dateline. FYI I'm in control and I'm the one to set the due. Not you alright?

Anyway it's valentine's although it's already not when you are reading this. I shall enjoy every moment of it right? It's a lovely season still. Who shall I date then? Let's see... Oh Mr. Assignment, there you are. Let's go. Maybe we shall enjoy facing the laptop for the next friggin' 10 hours? Love you lots. X.O.X.O.

Great connection down. Will post this on 15th then.

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15th: I'm still working on the final editing of the assignment. BOO.

8pm Grammy? Having class in Malaysia =(

2011-02-13T23:14:00.005+08:00

I realized my style of writing changed a lot after spending a couple of hours reading my "older posts". It's way better for sure. I hate my style of writing when I was "young" LOL.

Anyway another assignment is down and I'm now working on Study Skills paper work which is due on Wednesday. I know my life is packed. Taking part in events too. I really hope that I have a better leader. She's kind of blur case.

Oh ya my cough is about to CLEAR and do you know what that means? Karaoke! Ladies' special offer on Wednesday babes! JOM~

Too bad can't watch Grammy 2011 live. Best wishes to baby Adam. You are so gonna get a Grammy! Baby Adam is the "bestest" in the world =)

Night peeps. sorry for the short update. don't really feel like writing today.

Anyway am so sad after knowing one of my friend is doing Biomedical Science in Shitar.

Wish him good luck then.

Can't wait to dream about baby Adam awarded with a Grammy.

Dreams come true =)

Awww.... How lovely? *muackz*

Of Low Yat, Pavilion and Terrible Cough

2011-02-12T08:39:00.015+08:00

First of all, I've got my EF50mm f/1.8 lens! Yipee~

An outing was planned few days ago as roomie Ving wanted to get herself a new phone while Ginne babe was planning on buying a SLR. So we had decided to go to Low Yat on Friday, right after my Study Skills presentation. The presentation was a success and we manage to get a huge round of applause from the lecturer and also the crowd, although there were only 15 of them left in the class? Anyway the class was postponed and ended late, so as our outing. Anyway we immediately rushed back to our rooms, get dressed and rushed to the shuttle bus stop, take UCSI shuttle to BTS, LRT to Hang Tuah, and finally monorail to Bukit Bintang. Oh by the way did I just say "get dressed"? It's just round-neck-tee and shorts, not planning to get overdressed. We will be carrying stuffs and stuffs and stuffs. LOL. Reached Low Yat around 5, went to the place where I get my DSLR before to ask for pricing. They did offer good price during my time and this time slightly higher. And this time? Bargain time! Alright I'm not a mak cik but I have to admit that I'm really good in this. I managed to cut down the price, A LOT, with additional specs, GOOD SPECS. The reason why the price is higher this time because the promotion period is over and they have to re-adjust back the price to it's normal market price. So do my 50mm portrait lens, it was on promotion last December, price as low as RM269, now RM320 =( Anyway dealed Ginne's Canon EOS 500D at RM2670, where the original price for body and kit lens was RM2399, a filter worth RM289, An extra original battery from Canon, 8 GB Trans SD worth RM259, tripod, cleaning kit, screen protector and of course a bag. By the way I got myself an original battery at a low price of RM100 and also baby lens at RM320, spending RM420 to enhance and to boost up my baby camera. =)

Next target in shopping list, roomie Ving's N8. She has always wanted this model because the interface and stuffs are actually among the best of Nokia's. Finally she got the chance to do so after her HTC went wrong, spending RM1600 for a gorgeous black N8. Also we managed to get ourselves some amazing casings for our phones. A white leather casing for my BB, YUM!

Headed to Pavilion for food, planned on doing some shopping too but we are so loaded. Sounds like a forklift to me. LOL. Bought a can of Sticky candy (as shown in the first picture) and had our dinner at Sushi Tei.

Roomie Ving's N8

Busy playing with her new darl

My Udon with scallops. YUM!

Their bento's (nice captured!)

Really YUMMY =)

Posing. I like my expression here, NICE!

Effect of portrait lens without the lens LOL. *I took this. YAY!*

This cup of cold green tea made me cough like hell for the rest of the night =(

Next, cam-whore in the toilet =)

OK so now you can see my outfit, really SIMPLE for an outing to Pavilion

Say cheese =D

Love this picture the most! Baby Prada is in too *hearts*

Finally the last one to end this sweet day.

Too bad babe Em is not with us =(

Never mind. I'm looking forward for a karaoke session after this.

The photos are so nice that I can't stop looking at them. Anyone realize that I do changed a lot? I hope it's in a better way then =)

Photo credits to Ginne Chuah. Have fun DSLR-ing!

4.75

2011-02-10T21:37:00.004+08:00

I don't know why but I feel happy today! Maybe it's the brilliant idea that makes me feel contented. Anyway the presentation day is tomorrow and my group members are not even done with their own part yet. By the way the presentation is to be carried out even before the submission of paperwork. I think it will be great, I bet. For sure this will be a short update, I'm off to assignments.

Oh ya I will be going to Low Yat and Pavilion tomorrow. Accompanying my roomie to get a new cellphone, also helping Ginne to choose her very first DSLR. Happy! I'm not the one to spend the most tomorrow, FINALLY! Yes I'm a shopaholic but I have to stop (maybe shop moderately) this month. I'm saving money to get myself a new wallet. It's kind of weird to take a Bonia wallet out from a Prada bag right? I have to find something that is complementary to my baby Prada. Will be shopping for a new wallet with Mr. Cohen next month. And next month will be a busy month with events and assignments! I heart.

Journalism class was dramatic today. There's actually a quiz where one of my classmate, a China boy was trying to copy my answers. It's not that sneaky kind but he actually wrote me a note, asking me to show him my answers. Of course I did not. Then we were asked to mark our friends' paper, which the lecturer distributed randomly. Babe and I sooner realized that he's still holding his own paper when he borrowed someone else's paper to copy the answers. He was so terrified that his eyes are staring whenever I'm talking to the lecturer. Babe and I did tell her about that. I think we did the right thing, do we? It's very unfair as the others studied so hard to score where he just played tricks to get the marks. Anyway I got an 11 out of 10! WOO HOO! I shall take that as a compliment as my answers are too brilliant that someone even gave me extra marks for them. He counted wrongly and my actual score was 9.5 out of 10. Another drama thing comes! We have to convert the test to a 5%, they scored me with a 4.25 WTF. No one even realise about that man! 9.5/2=4.75! CACAT!!!

Social stuffs

2011-02-08T21:45:00.002+08:00

Another day is almost gone but I just planned to start the real business of the day right now. Class was extremely fun today and lots of conversation were going on. I really like this. It's not that we're not good in socializing but talking with someone that I don't like is seriously not my thing. Well unless it's necessary. Anyway it was fun doing the class activities and chatting with some classmates. I'm glad that we actually manage to group ourselves together, all of the non-typicals' in the same assignment group. I'm pretty sure that we'll score well in it =)

Had a chat with babe today and it's all about luring the guys LOL. No choice we've been single for like 200 years? Anyway had a little chat with "him" on facebook today. Not something too private, instead we did it on his wall. So it's kind of opened to the public I guess? Not much of it. Just bluffing all the way. Gosh why do I have the feeling that I actually care? He's the one replying late yet you are waiting like you are the most stupid person in the world. I hate it and I just can't control. Still it was a crush, a beautiful crush. I know you want me to get rid of it babe. But no choice unless there's a guy out there for me right now. =P

Any potential boyfriend out there for us? LOL.

Alright I guess it's time to do the real thing now. Study for tomorrow's test!

After that another meeting for presentation on this Friday.

Great. My friend was so surprised to know that I actually have piles of works to be done in year 1. I'm doing Mass Comm dude. What do you expect? =)

Anyway I like my group members babe, Justin, Nandini, Fajjar, Jamal and Alvin very muchie =)

Dee-Aye-M-Anne

2011-02-07T22:26:00.003+08:00

Damn I'm so sleepy right now. Slept for a HOLY 4 hours last night and I'm awake since 7 this morning. I'm so freaking not myself right now, regretting of not taking nap this afternoon. What for to refresh facebook page every 3 minutes? I'm constantly doing that though. For the whole freaking day! GREAT. By the way my media player was set to shuffle mode and it's now playing Sleepwalker by Adam Lambert. Should I go sleepwalk now? GOSH I seriously think I should cut the crap. But I will have nothing to write if I cut the crap! I'm the crapping queen. Tadah~

Crown me please

By the way today was supposed to be a great day as we've already done with 1 assignment. Too bad I found that we might be having a pop quiz tomorrow. Then we were like: "Oh ya~~~", paused, "Oh NO!" LOL. Anyway glad that it covers just theoretical part, not those current news or issues. I would die if it's so, I need my dad's Star paper to help. But I really don't feel like studying right now. I'm really SLEEPY. I guess I should just turn in and wake up earlier to study tomorrow morning.

Anyway I do find my crapping skills to be more advanced after completing my Expository Writing assignment 1. She'll give me good scores right? Since everything is so ORIGINAL. LOL. The same goes to my lameliness. I'm getting funnier and lame-er these days. Happy? =)

Stupid cough. Shoo shoo go away!

Happy Chor Sei

2011-02-06T16:43:00.002+08:00

Too bad I'm back from my CNY break and I don't even had one mandarin orange! What kind of CNY is this? Without mandarin orange and biscuits. Not even "new year cake". Oh God I'm still coughing like hell right now. Stupid throat. When will this get better? I really don't want to DISTURB the class with my oh-so-annoying cough. You know you have to try so hard not to cough because it will not end once you've started it. Then everyone will stare at you. Then you will feel so embarrassed but find no way to stop it. Then you will hate yourself, and the cough. BOO.

This year's CNY is not that happening for me as I barely feel like celebrating it. Less relatives, no CNY food for me, no gambling. That's why! I'm a good girl, I don't gamble. In fact I won around 100 bucks last year. Oops. Did I say something? LOL. Don't feel like gambling this year though. Feel bad and guilty about that. God doesn't favor gamble. =)

Overall it was OK and it's fun when it comes to the money part. Not exactly the angpau's. Of course they were great too but the business in mom's shop was kind of woo-hoo. Well you know, CNY is the super peak season for Genting kaki's. People barely can walk in Genting during CNY season. I even get mad when I was walking there. Luckily I've found a spot in Starbuck's so that I don't look so stupid in the crowd. Too bad there was no nice decorations. Nothing at all. Therefore, no photo shooting. BOO. How am I going to submit my photography assignment then? Holy. Anyway the business is awesome and will be even more awesome but my leg, NO.

And now I have to rush for assignments, stupid assignments.

Chao.

Happy Chor Sei.

2011-02-02T11:36:00.003+08:00

It's CNY eve and I'm much better =)

I had a very severe fever last two days and it was killing me seriously. The fever went on and off and I'm having cough at the same time. Not to mention about the female-monthly-shit. Can you imagine when these come together? HOLY! Thank God that I'm OK now, just a little cough.

The tough part: ASSIGNMENTS. Yes it is so tough that I have to bold the words. I'm used to assignments but loads of them during CNY? Hell NO! FYI I'm not enjoying this holiday, I'm working like a Indonesian maid. Too bad. Maybe a photo shooting and countdown at Genting would lighten up my night? Too bad. I'm shooting for 2 of my assignments. Awwwww.....

Sorry I'm seriously not in the mood of writing. But I'm so happy to see my baby Prada. Heart you =)

29th is a good day for baby Adam =)

2011-01-29T14:41:00.004+08:00

Back to ulu hell and am now enjoying doing nothing. Great. There should be tonnes of assignments yet I'm still refreshing faceshit every 3 minutes and eventually there're no changes on the page. There will be reunion dinner later tonight, again great I can face around 80 relatives.

"Hey Zyenyi, what are you doing now? Still studying? How many years to go? Harr??? You changed your course? Again?"

I hate the word AGAIN. I just changed once and that's the final one. I love my decision so much that I will stick to Mass Comm. Don't ask me why I'm taking Mass Comm, I don't think it's a waste. I'm such a Mass Comm person that my life is so happening. I enjoy dealing with people and organizing events. Don't think you know me that much. I hate medic. BOO.

No choice. Still I have to attend the dinner. Well I'll just pretend that it's baby Adam's birthday celebration =)

Happy Birthday to my baby Adam Lambert! Though it's a bit early for you in the States. It's already 29th in Malaysia. Have a great one and congratulations on the successful charity =)

Love ya!!!

CNY break

2011-01-27T22:09:00.003+08:00

Chinese New Year is around the corner and seriously this year is not that woo-hoo-ly prepared. The CNY atmosphere is just not there and surprisingly the whole Malaysia felt in this way. Maybe some CNY movies can boost up a bit? Watched Homecoming with Ginne today. It was again okay for me, not to expect too much for a CNY movie right? But Great Day brings larger impact for me if you really have to compare between them. Yes there are messages in Homecoming but maybe the storyline is expected and it doesn't contain the WOW factor, it doesn't really make people think though. Too bad. I like movies that let people think, at least a bit.

Had sushi as dinner and I was so shocked that they served us Chinese soy sauce instead of Japanese ones. For sure we can tell the difference right? Chinese soy sauce is salty and it has a very special fragrance that is only found in them where else Japanese shoyu tastes sweet and milder. Oh dear Sushi Queen, are you cutting the budget? Please don't. I do not expect Chinese food from a Japanese cuisine. Had udon and it was amazing! It has been ages since I had my last udon. I love udon =) Thought of having the green tea ice-cream as my dessert but then I was too full at that time. Maybe a McE sundae cone tomorrow afternoon will do.

By the way I viewed some pictures captured by a friend using SLR and they are so not SLR! To be honest they look even worse than pictures from my friend's 7.1 mega pixels compact camera. Is it the manufacturer's fault or what? Hmm... Maybe he set the ISO so high that most of his pictures are so blur with less details? But why is the picture still so dark when he uses a high ISO? Please also play with aperture and shutter speed before you snap kay? Oh ya there's also the Image Stabilizer in your SLR, utilize it alright? =)

Anyway today is a great day. God loves me so much that I managed to get my phone back after I left it in the cinema hall. Stupid me. And for that I had decided to reward myself with a small piece of delicious bah-guah for my supper. Don't worry, it's just 3cm*2cm. I'm going back tomorrow for an early break so don't miss me too much! Might not be updating so often until I get some nice pictures during the lovely CNY.

Happy Chinese New Year!

Congratulations on being wealthy!

Ten thousand things like yee!

Do you know PROENZA SCHOULER?

2011-01-26T16:16:00.002+08:00

Yes I'm obsessed with designer brands and luxurious stuffs. Too bad I still do not have the ability to own them but a little "research" and knowledge about them? I'd love to! The passion and concentration just came straight away whenever I'm talking about these. My friends would have know that. In fact I made some new friends by starting up with this line: "Wow, your bag is beautiful! How much you pay for it?" Then the conversation goes, "Your Prada wallet is pretty too! But I thought it's not available in Malaysia? Where you get it from? Hong Kong?"

Call me materialistic or whatever. It is not wrong to love something that's beautiful. Yes I love Prada very much, Burberry too. Miu Miu is just awesome and Celine oh my! Bottega Veneta? Insane! Gucci, Calvin Klein, Louis Vuitton! How can you not love them? =)

But here's my (also Hollywood's) new love... Proenza Schouler!

Best known for their PS1 - the brand's signature, Proenza Schouler is established in 2002 and its entire collection was bought by Barneys New York. Also the brand has been honored with the 2007 CFDA Womenswear Designer of the Year Award. Too bad the collection of Proenza Schouler wearable luxury is still not available in Malaysia and Singapore. However, it is already available in Japan, HK and Taiwan. Also you can find them in some local luxurious boutiques such as GLAMPOT. Glampot also provide items of other designer brands, brand new and pre-loved babes, for both men and women.

Now, it's time to show you the legendary PS1.

OMG how can you not know PS1 after you know the collections of other designer brands?

PS1 Medium Leather $1595.00

PS1 Large Leather $1995.00

And the incredibly insane darling...!

PS1 Large Croc $14500

Photo credits to Google and Proenza Schouler.

Visit their website if you wish to view more of these babes and find out more about them =)

Quotes

2011-01-24T23:25:00.002+08:00

Maths in Life?

+ 努力
- 埋怨
x 学习
/ 不良习惯

人生7好 (比三好强 ^^):

结好缘
做好人
做好事
存好心
读好书
说好话
学好样

决定你一生的5大信念:

成功是因为良好的态度
坚持信念，就一定会成功
只为成功找方法，不为失败找理由
只要开始，永远不晚; 只要进步，永有空间
命运在自己手里，不是在别人口里

学习力就是竞争力，

学习是企业第二生产力。

贫者因学习而富，

富者因学习而强。

Jalan pasti ada,

Mesti ada cara!!

郑有文博士--2007

An Outing

2011-01-23T22:25:00.002+08:00

As I've promised, I'm writing something about my outing to Sunway Pyramid today.

Unfortunately it was a bad day for us as everyone seems to be in the sick club.

Maybe the climate during the pre-CNY season is not that "stable" though.

It's dry and windy and everyone's having bad voice and some even got themselves fever.

Aww too bad.

I'm kind of half-dead too.

Fortunately I had sufficient caffeine or I'll look like a dead fish with my shitty eye bags.

We didn't do much shopping as we were just to tired fighting the virus that let us down.

Anyway I did went to find something in Coach and Coach from the States are seriously cheaper.

So I kind of give up, and try to ask my cousins to bring them back from the best country in the world.

Ended up with some tops from Forever 21.

Everything from F21 is so sweet and feminine.

OMG the boots are awesome!

Too bad the price range are kind of high and I can't get much of those =(

Maybe a few at a time is good.

I can do it as a collection, like "weekly collection"?

LOL.

I'll show you my outfit at first.

Top - Padini Authentic's

Bottom - SEED

Flats - Vincci

Bag - Carlo Rino

Ignore my stupid eyes, I know they are tiny.

Alright I admit it, I'm kind of a Padini person. There're discounts for members! What do you expect more?

Alright the next one's better with my eyes opened a little bit more.

See the hair color?

Again ignore the presence of that cup of cendol. It makes me hungry. DARN.

I didn't have my dinner =(

Now I shall continue with my Heroes. I'm late. I know. But the series are just awesome!

And I watched The Notebook again 3 years after my first one.

Yes I know it was released in 2004 and I'm kind of late also but The Notebook is seriously amazing. Please watch it if you haven't do so.

Chao~

Good day!

Thank you Jesus, thank you Pastor Kevin. I heart you =)

Hair color

2011-01-23T00:04:00.002+08:00

I feel really bad these 2 days as I actually ignored everyone. Again I isolated myself, yes I might look happy and normal for you but actually I don't. I'm so LOST. I refuse to talk much about myself, spending all of my time on the others. Selfless? Selfish I would say. I don't even dare to face myself sometimes. You know when sometimes you are alone... You rather sleep than having thoughts. I don't think much. A big problem? Maybe. The passion is just not there you know. I've tried to treat myself good but then I feel sorry at the same time. How could I think of myself when someone out there is depending on you? I just choose to escape sometimes. I kind of agree and take on everything that people said and suggested. Again I'm appointed as the leader for assignments and everyone is depending on me. Sometimes I can't even breath. Why are all those burdens on me? Why can't they feel like I do? Why is it always me to take care of the rest? Can I be "the rest" sometimes? Can someone take care of me? I too will feel tired and I too will sometimes feel that I'm not capable enough. I too will be BLOWN UP and I really don't want to get to that point.

But you know what? I've regain my strength! Burdens will never knock me down. Test? Assignments? What's the big deal? Do you know what I have? I have this unstoppable and unlimited leadership skills therefore I shall conquer you! Perhaps this is what I have to take on as a leader: Take good care of the rest, not too much on yourself. But being a leader sometime is so LONELY. I do wish that someone's out there to lighten my burden, at least a bit will do. Listening to me, lending me shoulders to cry on. I don't want to be so LONELY and I do wish that someone understands me. Is it my fault to be too strong and tough?

By the way that's my new hair color. Sorry the picture really fails. My mirror is incredibly small and I have to focus on my camera to fit my head in. It looks even brighter in real. Perhaps some pictures during the outing tomorrow will explain even better. I have to sleep now or I'll have black circles which is not nice for a camwhore session.

Nights. May nightmare won't come tonight. I heart you Jesus. =)

20.01.2011

2011-01-20T21:32:00.002+08:00

I'm not a blog person I know.

It's not that I don't want to update my blog but my life is so not happening =(

The most to do is an outing for movie.

I prefer not to go out that often these days as I'm BROKE.

I spent a little too much in a sense that I think I should CONTROL a bit.

Anyway I'm going to do my hair tomorrow.

Plan on changing color as it's CNY.

Prefer something ranges like copper a bit, then blonde a bit, then gold a bit.

LOL.

I know I'm hard to be satisfied.

It's my hair alright?

Appearance!

Helly important in a sense that I'm already f-ugly enough and I shall make my at least my hair presentable.

Then I shall match it with so owh-so-awesome clothes so that I'm less f-ugly.

By the way I watched "Great Day" few days back and it was okay for me.

Not that it's not good but I actually expect more than that.

Scenes I heart:

Where Joey's dad appears at the hawker center, OMG it's the eff-ing charming Alex San =)
Royce and Vivian splitting out Laksa soup after listening to their dad suspecting he's suffering from breast cancer. Immediate action dude!
Hokkien-Mee using kakak's G-string to tie the "ginger flower"
Kakak Susanti crying like hell when Joey's missing. Note that Vivian and Royce gave her LAME face LOL
Joey performing with grandpa on stage (burst into tears)
MV shooting. OMG you can see KahFai, YiBoh and Alvin =)
Royce crying like hell on his owh-so-lovely motorbike
Joey: "Kakak, ajar saya dui lian~" LOL =)
Wai Fun's "yeah~~~~~~~~~~~~" with Jack
This seriously made me cry: [10+1+1]

The bad thing about this movie:

I was craving for Asam Laksa after that. So badly! DARN.

And thereby I decided to have Asam Laksa at the Connaught pasar malam and it was way beyond awesome!

Woo Hoo~

I want it again next week =)

I'm so looking forward for my visit to Sunway Pyramid on Sunday, after church =)

Forever 21 I heart =)

Topshop I heart even more =)

Vincci and Nose also I heart!

Yay~~~~

BTW assignments and tasks and quiz and test and stuffssssss are killing me =(

Gaga

2011-01-16T23:23:00.003+08:00

A very funny yet true thought came into my mind in a sudden.

"I would never have my seat right behind Lady Gaga when I'm watching a show."

Why?

Let me show you what's actually blocking your view when you are sitting right behind Gaga.

1) Shiny shoulder pads. Massive!

A moderate one...

Madonna inspired outfit

2) Creative hairstyles and decorations. Massive!

Look at the guy behind her =)

This reminds me of Chinese 雨篓

I love this crystal outfit the most =)

This leopard print thing is kind of moderate too...

Emo and architecture stuff...

Gaga turns "bad" =)

She's so McQueen!

OMG so formal and classy =)

And after all of those, what's this?

So cute and adorable =)

Update 2011.01.13

2011-01-12T23:47:00.003+08:00

The days are boring in hostel if you are not going out that often. It's just class, dinner and sleeping most of the time. You even merely step out from the campus, at most to McDonald's for a cheap lunch. OMG I just can't take it and I really need an outing! In fact my last outing was to Sunway Pyramid after church last Sunday. It's like 4 days in room! WOW can you believe that? I actually didn't pou for 4 days! Today's ladies night but unfortunately I'm not going out. I just miss outing with my babes so much, not for some undesirable and unfavorable or unhealthy stuffs. I enjoy our conversation so much that I really do not wish to end it. But we did had some drinking and shisha at the same time LOL. I'm not turning bad, it's just another form of entertainment, don't worry.

Classes are fun but still we are so sick of facing those really Chinese kind of Chinese. You know what I mean. I can't even talk with them. It's like "WHAT?! I can't believe you just said that!" Childish and trying to act innocent? Oh God save me! Some even pretend to be banana-ish to stand out from the crowd. Still you look like a star fruit, yellow both inner and appearance. There's one guy who even act like he knows everything, Mr. Wiki? Mr. Empty to be precise. BOO. But I do love the lecturers, not great but good enough. Journalism was fun yet challenging, Expository Writing still okay, Psychology really psycho, Study Skills with great companions and last but not least, Photography class is still awesome regardless of those annoying classmates. Met a new friend too, Krystle from PD, who shares mostly common opinions with us. She hates Chinese Chinese and Lala's very much too. I guess we will make very good friends, God bless!

Alright the most interesting and awaited part, the lovey dovey thing! By the way I did saw a damn HOT Middle East guy, changing shirt at the hilltop car park! I didn't do that on purpose, it was an accident! I was on my way back to the room and I saw him shirtless when I was about to enter my room. OMG so HOT! Really HOT! As for "him", I still miss him, occasionally. My heart still beats faster whenever I'm listening to Jay Chou's songs, he loves them. I will still view his profile and pictures. I even imagine he's studying in UCSI, stupid me! You guys better pull me out from that or else I will be falling for him again. Wake me up please. Why don't I just start to fall for someone who's way better than him? Who deserves it. Let's just pray for it! Wish me luck peeps =)

Joke of the day:

A boy whispers in a wedding: "Mom, why is the girl dressed in white?"

Mom: "Because today will be the happiest day in her life!"

Boy: "Then why is the man wearing black?..."

W.O.W

2011-01-10T18:49:00.004+08:00

Kids are smarter nowadays that more and more of them are doing their tertiary education at a young age of 11 or 12! Alright I know that I'm the ORDINARY one but they are just way too SMART. It's way beyond the standard and sometimes I just wonder that could they handle the tasks in an appropriate way? How would they deal with the circumstances when it comes to like: emotional stuffs? What if they are having difficulties in working with their assignment teammates? Are their thinking mature enough to tally with their intelligence? Hmm.... I'm not being harsh but that's the way it is. My cousin is a very smart kid and he knows mostly everything. However he will still behave and act like what he supposed to be, a 13 year old KID. He will still play around and fight although he has this COOL knowledge on astronomy. He's expert in Physics but when it comes to deep conversation, he still can't make an appropriate statement. But at least he's still enjoying his life as a kid and a teenager! But how about the others? They are busy doing assignments while their peers are playing UNO cards. They are doing their research paper while the girlfriends are shopping in the mall. Apparently this leads to depression due to the uncomforted heart they have. They have lost their rights of enjoying childhood. So think about it parents! Do you want your children to grow up in that way? Please handle them with care!

Oh ya before I forget, there's a 12 year old kiddo doing A-Levels in UCSI. Feel free to drop by at our campus and visit.

http://www.thestaronline.com/news/story.asp?file=/2011/1/10/nation/7765979&sec=nation&sms_ss=facebook&at_xt=4d2aca6f676a2d0e,0

The end of Week 1

2011-01-07T10:05:00.002+08:00

Oh I just can't believe that time passes like nobody's business that it's already Friday! Life in KL is just fun with no doubts and that's why I can't even notice and track time sometimes. It's just so convenient for outing and temptations are everywhere! WOO I like yet I hate temptations. I do believe that the itchiness and eagerness of shopping is inherited from my father, which is like, fixed and I can't change a thing about it. So, don't blame me if I'm spending A LITTLE BIT too much alright? =) But for sure that I will jaga budget, no worries ya! Well you know, shopping is an OCCASIONALLY activity LOL. Did I mentioned the word frequently? No? Lucky. =)

Anyway let's get into something more towards what a good girl should do. I didn't skip any class this week! Yay! Hey I'm speaking like I always skip class. In fact, I don't. I'm a good girl (coward in fact) that I merely skip from classes unless the lecturer's too boring. By the way there's no point of skipping classes as I rarely have classes. WOW don't take this wrongly but my timetable is like: 3 hours class today, 1.5 hours class tomorrow, 3 hours class again the next day. But I really do like my course that I'm thankful all the time that I've made the right decision in changing course =)

By the way Intro to Journalism is creepy! Oh I'm bad in writing! How am I suppose to do? Arghh.................

GOTCHA!

2011-01-05T23:18:00.006+08:00

Went to the so called Malaysia's longest night market on a typical Wednesday and I was amazed and surprised to meet one of my good friend there. I was on my way back to the hostel after getting myself some food and drinks and this friend actually greeted me in his car. I went crazy screaming like "Ahhhh.....!" in front of the crowd. So embarrassed, I know. By the way he remains to be cute and shy, as always. Who? My former "God son", Chen Kit =)

We was once very close as he's too shy and I'm the one helping him out in stuffs in the university. It's the eff-ing UTAR, as you are well aware of it. I take care of him, should I use the word take care? Anyway something close to that. He's such a cute and innocent boy that sometimes I just can't tahan to cubit his face =) Anyway I'm glad to know that he's OK with his studies nowadays (he once blamed me for not ajak-ing him to withdraw). All the best ya zai zai! Try not to be that shy anymore! Duck Han Yum Cha!

Sorry I really look noob in this picture. I hate!

Randomness

2011-01-04T20:18:00.002+08:00

I had photography class today and it was awesome! Of course it would be better if the classmates are different. Just can't stand too much with typical Chinese, what a shallow thought they have. Of course I know it's not about where they're from actually, it's their mindset. Even a little girl from an out of no where kampung would be more mature than them. OMG do they realize that they are university students now? I wonder.

By the way there's a trend now where everyone is longing for a DSLR and you know what? I already have it! LOL I know you definitely realized that but I just can't stop repeating it. DSLR is amazing! And for sure it is advance when you are attending a photography class! Can't wait for the assignments and shootings to come. Of course to sharpen my skills as well =) I believe that the shootings session will be amazing as we are going to create our own so called "themed-album", not to forget the weekly assignments with different topics!

As for Journalism class, we will have to create a newspaper of our own! WOW this semester is mainly task-oriented and I guess it will cost me a lot in buying materials! Not to forget the loads of assignments and presentations! Presentations, I heart! Anyway I remembered one scene where the lecturer were discussing some basic stuffs on neurons during Psychology 1 and I was surprised that I'm the only student that came across with Biology before! I mean like: Biology in secondary school wor? Like that also don't have meh? Alright then I guess Psychology 1 will be easier for me =) Yay!

Alright then I'll just pray for a better tomorrow.

Chao~!

Longing for...

2011-01-02T19:53:00.002+08:00

Time flies. Again I'm using this phrase as the opening. Of course time flies. It's already 2011 and time continues to go on, waiting for nobody. It will still continue its counting even though you are absent or you are wasting it. Don't try to fool around with time. Even a second kills.

Alright back on Earth. I'm back to the hostel and I will officially start my Semester 2 tomorrow morning. 8 a.m. class which sucks to the max. Mostly morning classes this semester but never mind, I can wake up on 7.30 even it's a 8 o'clock class. FYI it's just around 2 minutes of walking distance from my room to the class. Wee...

By the way I will certainly have more freedom when I'm here in KL (sorry Em)! So a movie and some shopping once a week wouldn't be a problem for me. Also I would be able to join more gathering and food hunting trip as I could. And Shisha in Starlight! I heart! I just miss my old friends so much! Oh ya some drinking as well =) I will do it moderately, no worries. And now I'm waiting for a trip with my babes as they are joining us in KL for their studies! Yay! We would have more time to meet up and gather around, and SHOPPING! Yahoo~ Elen, Cohen, Kaylen, Hanessa, tuan-tuan dan puan-puan!!!

Alright I know I'm a little bit off. The internet line just draws me mad sometimes... By the way I've got myself a new headphones. Heart it as well! And I'm using my new mouse pad, a gift from youth camp. It says "Never give up", so cute! A new novel as my start too. Dark Origins by Anthony E. Zuiker. Have a fresh start girl! Live a life!!

By the way yesterday was 01.01.2011. So????

Today's 02.01.2011 and tomorrow will be 03.01.2011!

What's so special? It's just a date noob.

Stop posting it in Facebook, it's ridiculous.

Welcome 2011!

2011-01-01T22:03:00.002+08:00

Coincidently everyone is writing something regarding LOVE these days. I wonder. Perhaps it's just a wish for this brand new year? Everyone wants and needs to be loved for sure. It is such a power that can either make people alive or lead someone to death. Of course you know who I am referring to for the suicide case, don't imitate him. Here's a piece where I found meaningful and interesting about LOVE. Love is actually way beyond what we can imagine. It is so great that it even leads to sacrificing. Love forgives. Love leads to a new life. Love changes. Love is eternal. Can you feel the LOVE?

http://jaesonma.com/365-days-of-love-day-365-just-love/

Again it's a brand new year and I kind of refuse it to come but at the same time accepting the fact. Of course that I'm unofficially 21 years old but I refuse to accept it! Damn I just had my 20th birthday 2 weeks ago! That means I missed 1 year? That is so unfair! LOL. Anyway, there'll be new hope when there's a new year. I bet everyone had their own wishes and goals to be accomplished throughout the year. Of course a "to-do-list" will be a trend for this very first post of the year. But well you know I would like to be the special one and go against the trend for this! Instead of doing a "to-do-list", I would like to do a "wish-list"! LAME. I know I am =)

To spread the Love and Words of God
To connect and maintain a good relationship with God, family and friends
To live an excellent life for God: Academic, Personality, Achievements, Behavior etc.
To stay positive and optimistic all the time
To have the ability to control myself in terms of temper
To earn and save more money
To achieve higher goals in live
To find a suitable way to relief the pain sometimes
To be stronger and stand still against temptations (Damn hard)
To live a happy and satisfied life
To PLAY HARD =)
To SHOP HARD =)
To POU HARD =)
To find a boyfriend, IF POSSIBLE =)
And the final one so far: To celebrate my 2011 Christmas in the States!

Oh how I wish I could accomplish these!

Have a great year folks!

God bless!

Au revoir =)

LOVE

2010-12-29T16:34:00.004+08:00

Love and admire sometimes can just go so far that you can recall and cherish every moment between you and your love one. What I mean here is really the love between couples. Sometimes you thought you had already let him go but then still you will have itchy hands that clicks on his profile picture when you sees it on your Facebook news feed page. Or maybe purposely to be active for that moment when you know he's on. And then you'll wish for a chat with him and try to discover more on his recent activities yet you had already known as you are viewing his profile all the time. That's what I feel right now. I thought I had already let it go but then still I will try my best to catch up with his activities and basically I know most of his things even we did not contact at all. I will stare at his pictures, scolding and complaining about his attire and pretend to look down on him, feel lucky and blessed enough that I'm not in a crush on him anymore. But sooner do I realize that he's still important in my life as he's still occupying some sort of space in my heart. I too will feel jealous and envy when some other girls are trying to approach him. He's not declared mine yet I just do not like it. Of course I do know that he'll never be mine but I still stands on this with hope. Who knows? At first I thought he was a gift from God and I pray a lot on this. But then the feeling starts to fade off when you see undesirable things happen. I thought I was the special one to him. I thought I'm the only one that is sharing some secrets with him. I thought he'll put me as his priority in sharing his own feelings and thoughts. Then I started to show off in order to declare that he is mine where he did enjoy it. I will keep his belongings when he's playing basketball, sweep away his sweat with his signature towel, bring him his bottle when he's thirsty, watch him in his basketball match where he will Hi-5 me when he scores on scoreboard. We hold hands in front of our friends, even in front of his PARENTS. But still he say no promises to me. I've been waiting for all these days but obviously he did not take the first step. Perhaps this incomplete and imperfect relationship will stay forever in my heart.

Oh God maybe I'm just too lonely? LOL.

I need a boyfriend immediately!

Maybe a girlfriend will do too.

Just kidding =)

Wish you all to have LOVE in your life!

I recommend you to listen to "LOVE" by Jaeson Ma!

Love you.

X.O.X.O.

Coming soon

2010-12-27T17:26:00.007+08:00

Time flies and there's only 1 week left for my holiday. I have to pack all the stuffs and get back on track once again. Guess what? I have to go through Year 1 Semester 2 again. WOW. Again. But I'm so happy that I can take Basic Photography next semester! The interest just came in drastically these days and I just can't wait to capture loads of amazing photos around! However next semester will be kind of loaded as I'm taking a few writing related subjects. BOO. Journalism? Study Skills? Expository Writing? OMG. Not to forget my elective subject Introduction to Psychology. WHAT?! LOL. I choose it anyway. No more PR after Mrs. Violet's nightmare LOL. I know PR, REPUTATION. I really know. Anyway have to do "add-on" for Basic Photography once the new semester starts.

I'm so happy that I'll be back to KL soon as I can hang out more often with my friends as it is way more convenient in terms of transport and time. Also I can have more time for movies and the most important thing after all, SHOPPING!! OMG how can you not love shopping? I remember there was a saying of "Whoever says money can't buy happiness simply don't know where to go shopping." COOL yet A FACT. I heart!

Toast! To shopaholics =)

I heart!

2010-12-23T12:38:00.002+08:00

Finally ONE picture is uploaded after a zillion year....

Without editing...

OMG I just heart him so much that I would live 2 weeks without food for him!

Meet my LOU GONG!

FYI I'm just a beginner and I promise that I will work kao kao to maximize and master the amazing features of my babe.

Maybe becoming a photojournalist starts to become an option for me, who knows?

But of course my main interest is still on Marketing Communication and also event management.

Whatever...

The main thing to do now is to travel and take pictures around =)

Trees, birds, the sky, the train, cars, people....

Everything that I wish to capture using my amazing LOU GONG will be in my very first album =)

Have a happy and blessed Christmas! Just like I do =)

Off to discover more on my babe!

Bitch by the Beach =)

2010-12-18T09:26:00.002+08:00

It has been forever since I last update my blog and I know it. I'm so sorry that I've been away for this long as I was out the cities few days ago. Where? You would have know about it if you realize the changes in my Facebook status. I've been off to PD for a 4D3N church camp and it was too awesome that I have to take enough rest back at home before I start working again =)

The theme of this camp is "Me versus Myself" where we were supposed to explore the original me, which somehow no longer exist in this materialistic world. A lot of people has been hiding themselves from the world. Not exactly staying at home or sit around the corner, but then they always pretend to be strong and tough, even mean sometimes just to be stronger than the others. Some even fake or bluff on how wonderful their life is, regardless of facing even their TRUE friends.

I was simply amazed by all the work done by the committee as everything conducted is related to the theme. How hard! I had organised a lot of camps before but as a participant? Not many times though. That's a good chance where you can observe and learn how people work together as a team in an organization.

OK let's get it officially started. Emelia and I were kind of worry when we had decide to go for the camp. Well you know, we are complete outsiders for the camp. But then the whole group did get along well very soon and we had hell lot of fun man! Day 1 was like, ice-breaking, move in, ice-breaking. Day 2: STATION GAMES! Again it was hell lot of fun and all of us enjoy ourselves to the max. The only problem was like, my leader was not around most of the time and there's 1 hyperactive kid who can't really behave =.= Well you know since I have the leadership skills in me (tak tau malu), I have to take over the group sometimes. The games was not too challenging and we did cooperate well and came out in third place. Which was kinda OK for us. FYI my group has the curse of being last all the time based on our leader, Christopher Soo's previous experience. Day 3: even more games! "Major Ball" is a game where players from all teams will have to compete and fight for balls to goal. And FYI there were more than 1 ball in the court, varies from ping pong to beach ball. Damn exciting wei~ And you know what? Our group came in last as predicted. DUH~

OK religious part. The sessions and sharing were amazing and I did manage to get myself into God's path again. Well you know we might forget to rely on and to pray to Him sometimes. We even forgot to let go our burden. You can feel the love of God again, deeply. Pastor Faith and Pastor Joanne was awesome! Love Rao Yan Ting in the camp too! Too bad she didn't sing for us =(

Oh ya before I forgot, I got an individual award in the camp. It's the Supportive Award where I'm being everyone's nanny throughout the camp. I'm the MOMMY!

Lazy already. Let the pictures do the talking.

Yummy FOOD

Hawaii-Nine-O; The Losing Team

See? That's my owh-kena-curse leader

Major ball with my extreme expression. LOVE IT!

Doing Illegal business

The Supportive a.k.a Mommy Award

DAI HUP JIEW =)

Take 2. OMG love Patrick's expression!

The 19 December girls =)

Please kindly view my Facebook profile for more pictures of embarrassment =P

Lovey Dovey =)

FYI it's 1245 now and I've been composing this post since 0800!

What a busy day =)

Hugs and Kisses!

Yummy Sensation

2010-12-08T09:35:00.004+08:00

Christmas is near! OMG love this festive season.

December's lovely and not to forget that today is actually my Lunar birthday =)

My mom insist that I really have to have 2 eggs and a bowl of mee suah for this.

But I would rather take these for my birthday!

Desserts are always girls' best friend no matter what your mood is.

SINFUL?

YUM!

Replacement please =)

Lovely Christmas themed cupcakes

Ice cream

Macarons, the all time favorite dessert

Cotton candy which filled our childhood memories

Not to forget my favorite Malaysian style dessert: Cendol

Craving for none of the above sinful desserts?

I recommend you this!

YUMMY!!!

20101206

2010-12-06T13:41:00.002+08:00

Woo Ha~!

I'm a bit "snakey" well...

Yes you have the right word - snakey.

I'm in the shop right now, being snakey a bit, skip from my job a bit.

Anyway attended my aunt's grandchildren's moon yuet jao last night.

It was awesome and sweet that the 2 cousins' age differs in 10 days.

So cute.

Anyway was having weird dreams these few days and I don't like them.

I feel even more tired after those dreams.

Oh God please provide me good sleep, you know, better quality.

I'm so sleepy right now that I'm so worry that I might overslept during the church camp next week.

Owh~~~~~~~

There's a bottle of Henessy next to me right now.
Shall I uncork it?

Hmmmmm.....

I heart Henessy!!

Just a random post.

Will continue this back home then.

Hearts.

Chao~

I don't have to go far when I miss you. All I need is to look inside my heart and I'll find you there.

20101201

2010-12-01T10:45:00.003+08:00

I know myself was a bit outdated these days as I rarely go online and I really did not catch up with some of my friends' recent activities. I'm so sorry that I even did not contact you guys. I'm really too busy that I could be so LAZY to turn on my laptop. Also I have started to think of abandoning my phone. Damn it's just too RETARDED. How could I do this? OMG you'll never know.

Time flies and it's already December, my favorite month of all =)

But I'm not happy today and I wonder why.

A feeling of FEAR came across to me since yesterday night.

It's a fear of UNCERTAINTY and I hate it!

I'm not sure what's going on but I'm worrying of the future again.

DAMN.

Maybe a long break isn't good at all.

Your mind will start to wander around when you have nothing to think about.

I've been resting my mind for such a long time where I don't have to deal with people and tasks.

I don't have to use my tricky mind to deal with people.

I've been resting and now that I choose to avoid myself into all those unfavorable stuffs.

I choose to be lazy.

I withdraw myself from the society.

I make myself being isolated.

DAMN.

But it's OK because everything will be fine once I'm out again =)

I'm so sorry if I didn't contact with you guys.

Just want to let you all know that I miss you guys and I still love you all!

By the way~

Congratulations to my dear cousin and I would like to send my wishes to the newlyweds Jason and Rachel !

Be thankful and grateful that you have find yourselves a perfect partner!

You two make such a sweet couple and it's definitely not easy to come across so many circumstances to stay together!

Gong Hei Gong Hei!

Stay sweet =)

By the way there are also wedding plans from some other cousins.

Woo Hoo~

Get to gather and makan again!

OMG so many good news from the family!

2 new born babies and 1 more coming next week!

The very BIG family is even growing BIGGER =)

Get yours soon Rachel =P

S.O.S

2010-11-25T21:48:00.000+08:00

I guess there's something wrong with my body these days.
I've never experienced such severe period pain.
At most a little bit on Day 2.
But then this feeling came across these few months where I feel very exhausted and sometimes dizzy during the period.
And it's even worse this time!
I feel like vomitting and I have to rely on medication to reduce the pain.
This is not good.
I would rather suffer from pain than taking those pills because I know the negative effects on taking them.
But no choice, I have to work and taking menstrual pills is the best solution.
And of course my temper is really bad!
I'm not trying to be mean but please don't mess up with me these few days.
I do get angry very easily.
DAMN what's wrong with me?
My body was strong during those days!
But now period pain?
Nonsense!
Ridiculous!
I'm getting older?
IDTS.
Pain la~~~~~~
Anyone with similar experience here?
Please help me out :'(

Result's OUT =)

2010-11-15T15:55:00.004+08:00

Wow maybe international U is a bit different yea?
My final examination result is out.
I was like "what? Efficient dude! It's like... 2 months to go for the next semester!"
LOL.
Anyway, I think that I'm not doing really well though.
Yes the grading was good but then the marks NO.
Just like my MUET you know...
Band 5 ranges from 220 to 259 and I got 221.
LAME.
FYI we need to score 85 and above for an A+ and I made an 86 for Introduction to Mass Communication.
1 mark again?
Lots of crapping in the paper.
Maybe 4 to 5 points for a 600 words essay?
Lame.
80 and above for an A, I made it 81 for Introduction to Advertising and 80 for Film Studies.
I knew that my final assignment for ads sucks because I didn't really pay much effort in it. I was so tired through the end of the semester and eventually let my team to take over the project. Thus, it sucks in many ways.
As for Film Studies, it was totally task oriented and I'm glad that our research paper had pretty cool marks.
FYI it was done in like 3 days time?
LOL.
Basically it was all about crapping and writing story tales =)
We did the ideologies in Slumdog Millionaire.
70 to 80 percent crapping .
Well crapping is certainly my business.
And after my calculation, our paper got 31/40!
Amazing!
Luckily I scored pretty well in my reviews assignment =)
By the way the standard in UCSI is a bit different.
A CGPA of 3.75 to be honoured as the first class.
DAMN!
Tough dude.

And the official result for my first semester?

Introduction to Mass Communication - A+ (4.0)
Introduction to Advertising - A (3.7)
Introduction to Film Studies - A (3.7)

With a CGPA of 3.8, I have to work real hard to maintain it above 3.75, hopefully possible =)

By the way I attended the Planet Radio event in Taylor's Lakeside Campus few days back and it was kind of informative.
Taylor's campus was awesome =)
Am so happy to meet Ean from Hitz
Love him =)

Anti Lala-ism

2010-11-11T09:54:00.002+08:00

Unlike the rest who are having their holidays, mine is kinda boring.

Nothing much interesting happened in my daily routine as I'm busy working.

The only part other than working is to hang out in Genting.

BORING.

Initially I thought maybe I can gap zai up there.

But then unfortunately there were no zai at all.

All seafood.

DENG.

I wonder why there are so many seafood nowadays.

What are their motives of dressing in such a humorous way?

It doesn't make any sense to us, the normal ones.

We won't put on a stupid green color leggings with your yellow dress on, with your pink color flats as an add-on, plus a stupid little crown on top of your shell. Sei La La.

Also we won't wear a white massive jacket with sky blue skinny, with stupid flip-flops. Sei La La.

What is going on with the world right now?

I wonder.

Where are the NORMAL senses of beauty?

It totally collapsed that my friend wearing a DKNY cardigan, carrying a Prada bag was being looked down by the La La's. They even gave her a big pei see face.

What the hell.

Just go back to sea, It's better for you all to get drowned.

When will they wake up?

I wonder.

Too bad that I have a couple of friends, oops not friends, just someone that I know, who are still being La La's even at their age of 22 or 23!

I'm not being bias but you guys know nothing about fashion and directed to the wrong way dude!

You don't look cool in tonnes of accessories, you look stupid.

You don't look gorgeous in heavy makeups, you look horny.

You don't look handsome in thick hairs, you look dirty and oily.

You don't look amazing in overrated leggings and heels, you look extremely weird in terms of proportion.

My final advice: Get up from the ocean! Live your life properly on land.

Fuck La La's... kao kao!

MIC iPhone?

2010-11-04T10:55:00.003+08:00

OMG there's something I would like to share with you guys!
Well you know restaurants and hawker centres are usually packed with people and these are good spots for selling pirated DVDs.
And almost all of the sellers are actually "zhong gwok poh".
Now they sell not only DVDs, but also herbs and medicines, accessories and sometimes stationaries.
Here comes the good part.
They are selling cell phones right now!
Variety of models from Nckia, Samsvng and also APple!
Of course they were M.I.C (Made in China).
Damn!
I've seen Nckia N8 and the appearance was OK.
Too bad the touch screen sucks and the "thing" took too long a time to respond.
LOL.

Can't get an iPhone4 because it's out of stock?
How about this M.I.C model?

Since when they launched this?
I have no idea.
Anyway it is stated to be a MP3 phone and songs were played everytime you flip open the phone.
Scary.
Too bad it can't be used in lecture classes =)
Guess how much it costs?
A 3G cell phone with 5.0 MP camera, MP3 music player, variety of applications and seriously damn slow response.
Around 400 bucks if I'm not wrong.
Anyone interested?
I can get it for you.
Of course I will charge you for commission.
LOL.
Contact me ASAP if you need one.
Will post more pictures of them once I get "contact" with the phones.
Please don't take it seriously LOL.
Anyway I still can help if you seriously need one =)
I'm a helpful girl.
But FYI it won't last long.
A month to 3 months?
Maybe.
My cousin's Nckia N8 has been tahan-ed for more than 4 months.
It's cool he had the first N8 in Malaysia!
By the way the real Nokia N8 is a worth-to-buy item.
A smart phone with multi-funtions, which costs you only around RM1700.
Think about it if you wish to have a nice phone with a limited budget!

Anyway I still heart my BlackBerry =)
It looks cool and charming although the camera sucks a bit.

Will post more cool pictures if I manage to get them.
"Stay tuned". =)

01.11.2010

2010-11-01T11:20:00.002+08:00

I know I'm not updating my blog recently.
Expected right?
I'm home and I'm busy working.
Well you know.
It's not easy to maintain and balance the life of a blogger at the same time a very hardworking worker =)
Anyway I'm here.
Just to tell you guys a bit.
Keep yourselves updated with my activities.
LOL.
As you guys know it's end of the year and school holiday's just around the corner.
And those who finished UPSR and PMR are enjoying an extra holiday.
And they are so obsessed with Genting (which I don't know why).
Genting is now flooded with tonnes of hao sang zai and hao sang mui.
Most of them are seafood (if you know what I mean).
And of course they have to eat.
And thereby the shop is flooded too =)
Love it!
The flow of customers is much higher during this season.
Deepavali is around the corner.
Another good opportunity to make money.
And this will continue till next year's Chinese New Year!
OMG what a good period.
Chinese New Year is the super peak season where the customers have to fight for chairs!
No idea?
We will have no time to eat.
Damn!
Love it!
It's cool when you see the cash coming in.
Oops went too far LOL.
Anyway I'm getting busier these days and I would barely go online.
Too bad.
Don't miss me too much.
I will try my best since I have my BlackBerry with me all the time.
Good luck folks.
Miss you guys.

FUN OWK KAY

2010-10-27T20:28:00.002+08:00

I'm home~

Everybody was like "huh? Holiday? I thought you just started your studies?"

That's right.

It was a short semester, taking around 2 months to complete.

And now I'm having a break of more than 2 months.

Cool isn't it?

I know!

But it ain't cool that I have to work =(

So tiring.

Can't I just have a break?

Not fair!

I want to go for a trip too.

But I don't have the chance to do so...

Never mind.

Still there's no assignments, tests and paperworks to deal with =)

Relax la~

It's semester break!!!

BTW I did listen to Adam Lambert throughout my journey.

I didn't post fake status in facebook KAY!

Move OUT

2010-10-26T13:43:00.002+08:00

Finally I'm done with packing and I know the miracles wardrobes and cupboards did.

I didn't realize I have this much stuffs until my roommate threw a "pui fook" face to me.

I was hiding all those stuffs in and I'm too shocked when I look them.

I even had no idea on where to start.

It's just 2 months and so much stuffs?

I couldn't believe it!

Can I just donate them to the charity?

LOL.

Gave some of my food that I can't finish like biscuits to the cleaning mak cik.

Too bad I brought a small luggage case this time.

If not then I can put ALL my stuffs in.

Coke Cohen Chow. My stuffs are even more than yours.

In this tiny little room.

OMG now the main problem is to move them downstairs, to the lobby!

It would be so embarrassing carrying so many stuffs =(

I will ask my roommate to help for sure.

DENG!

2 big boxes, 1 luggage case, 1 backpack, 2 hand carries, plus 3 more paper bags......

DISASTER!

Bye Cheras....!

See you soon!

2 months break woo hoo~!

New Chapter - Friendship

2010-10-25T03:09:00.002+08:00

I know sometimes I might get bored a little too fast that I changed my blog's layout again.

It's just that the template before shows no contrast and I've made up my mind to make it DARK.

Not to show emo but to show some changes I guess?

Back on Earth with my stories and latest updates.

I'm in my semester break right now as I've mentioned before and I did had a trip with my new friends here in UCSI.

Not very special destination.

It's just Genting but we did had a lot of fun together.

Played in the theme park (Gosh I've not play it for years).

Walked around.

Drinking (Naughty~).

Girl's talk in room (Truth or Dare session to be precise).

Had hell lot of fun and we get to know each other more.

Of course it's not that WOW for me.

Well you know Genting is my usual hang-out-spot.

But it's great to have a bunch of cool friends to hang over with =)

I love them.

Never thought of making such close friends since my previous failure.

I've been betrayed by BITCHES before.

Also I've deal with friendships in an inappropriate way.

Making me not myself anymore.

But I've found myself back in a positive way.

Much smarter in maintaining friendships.

I learned from my previous mistakes and I really feel sorry about what I've did before.

Also I feel blessed and thankful for my new life here.

I wouldn't had learned so much if I'd never been through those bad days.

I learned a lot from my new friends too.

Perhaps this is called FATE when we met each other.

God's planning never fails.

So many similarities, so many things in common between us.

I'm just so glad that I have these friends by me.

All the time.

So let's toast!

To FRIENDSHIP!

*Kindly view my facebook page for photos =)

HOLIDAY

2010-10-21T23:46:00.004+08:00

It's all about crapping in Mass Communication.

I'm done with my Y1S1 and holiday mode is ON!

God damn I just can't believe that I crapped like I've never crapped before in the paper.

600 words essay?

Insufficient points?

Lame.

Whatever.

Screw it.

I'm having my break now =)

And I'm going for a trip with my wonderful roommate and course mates =)

Looking forward to it!

Anyway I think my "pou" and "lan gai" level had grown so much that I just can't stand staying in room after the paper ended.

Went to Mid Valley for movies.

RED.

It was OK.

Not as good as I expect it to be =(

Anyway it's still cool =)

Bought some snacks and alcohols for the trip as well.

Ooops!

Don't tell the others alright?

I'm still a good girl.

Clever girl =)

I just drink occasionally alright?

Gonna turn in very soon as I'll be waking up early.

Goodnight peeps.

Have a wonderful life.

Because I do.

Hallelujah!

I heart Adam Lambert =)

Tongue Twisters

2010-10-19T22:27:00.001+08:00

1. Can you can a can as a canner can can a can?
你能够像罐头工人一样装罐头吗？

2. I wish to wish the wish you wish to wish, but if you wish the wish the witch wishes, I won't wish the wish you wish to wish.
我希望梦想着你梦想中的梦想，但是如果你梦想着女巫的梦想，我就不想梦想着你梦想中的梦想。

3. I scream, you scream, we all scream for ice-cream!
我叫喊，你叫喊，我们都喊着要冰淇淋!

4. How many cookies could a good cook cook if a good cook could cook cookies?
A good cook could cook as much cookies as a good cook who could cook cookies.
如果一个好的厨师能做小甜饼，那么他能做多少小甜饼呢？一个好的厨师能做出和其它好厨师一样多的小甜饼。

5. The driver was drunk and drove the doctor's car directly into the deep ditch. 这个司机喝醉了，他把医生的车开进了一个大深沟里。

6. Whether the weather be fine or whether the weather be not.
Whether the weather be cold or whether the weather be hot.
We'll weather the weather whether we like it or not.
无论是晴天或是阴天。
无论是冷或是暖，
不管喜欢与否，我们都要经受风霜雨露。

7. Peter Piper picked a peck of pickled peppers.
A peck of pickled peppers Peter Piper picked.
If Peter Piper picked a peck of pickled peppers,
Where's the peck of pickled peppers Peter Piper picked?
彼德派柏捏起一撮泡菜。
彼德派柏捏起的是一撮泡菜。
那么彼德派捏起的泡菜在哪儿？

8. I thought a thought. But the thought I thought wasn't the thought I thought I thought.
If the thought I thought I thought had been the thought I thought, I wouldn't have thought so much.
我有一种想法，但是我的这种想法不是我曾经想到的那种想法。如果这种想法是我曾经想到的想法，我就不会想那么多了。

9. Amid the mists and coldest frosts,
With barest wrists and stoutest boasts,
He thrusts his fists against the posts,
And still insists he sees the ghosts.
雾蒙蒙，冰霜冻，
手腕儿空空，话儿涌，
只见他猛所拳头往柱子上砸，
直说自己把鬼碰。

10. Badmin was able to beat Bill at billiards, but Bill always beat Badmin badly at badminton.
巴德明在台球上能够打败比尔，但是打羽毛球比尔常常大败巴德明。

11. Betty beat a bit of butter to make a better butter.
贝蒂敲打一小块黄油要做一块更好的奶油面。

12. Rita repeated what Reardon recited when Reardon read the remarks.
当里尔登读评论时，丽塔重复里尔登背诵的东西。

13. Few free fruit flies fly from flames.
没有几只果蝇从火焰中飞过去。

14. Fifty-five flags freely flutter from the floating frigate.
五十五面旗子在轻轻漂浮的战舰上自由的飘扬。

15. There is no need to light a night light on a light night like tonight.
for a bright night light is just like a slight light.
像今夜这样明亮的夜晚，就不需要点一盏夜灯，因为明亮的夜灯也会变得微弱。

17. A pleasant peasant keeps a pleasant pheasant and both the peasant and the pheasant are having a pleasant time together.
一位和气的农民养了一只伶俐的野鸡，而且这位和气的农民和这只伶俐的野鸡在一起度过了一段很美好的时光。

18. How many sheets could a sheet slitter slit if a sheet slitter could slit sheets?
如果裁纸机能裁纸的话，一个裁纸机能裁多少张纸呢？

19. Mr. See owned a saw and Mr. Soar owned a seesaw. Now See's saw sawed Soar's seesaw before Soar saw See.
西先生有一个锯，萨先生有一个秋千。现在在萨先生看见西先生之前，西先生的锯锯断了萨先生的秋千。

20. If you're keen on stunning kites and cunning stunts, buy a cunning stunning stunt kite.
如果你非常相要好的风筝和精彩的表演，就去买一只漂亮的，灵巧的风筝吧。

21. Ted sent Fred ten hens yesterday so Fred's fresh bread is ready already.
特德昨天给弗莱德送去了十只母鸡，所以弗莱德的新鲜面包已经准备好了。

22. A Finnish fisher named Fisher failed to fish any fish one Friday afternoon and finally he found out a big fissure in his fishing net.
一个名叫费希尔的芬兰渔民在一个星期五的下午未能捕捉到任何鱼，结果他民现他的渔网上有一个大裂口。

23. Franc's father is frying French fries for his five fire-fighter friends after they finished a fire-fighting in a factory.
在结束对一家工厂的灭火战斗以后，弗兰克的父亲在为他的五个消防队员朋友炸制法式土豆(炸薯条)

Zebra =)

2010-10-19T16:05:00.002+08:00

Had black nails with some gold color details for the Adam Lambert concert.

But then I accidentally broke it and it's now replaced with zebra patterns!

OMG so hot!

It's like WILD.

As wild as Adam Lambert in his performances.

Of course an exception in M.....sia.

Whatever.

Just don't want to mention about those stupid idiots over and over again.

They'll feel so proud that they actually made themselves cover in each and every papers.

Retarded.

Now they are putting the country in the "Most Ridiculous Country List".

I think our ranking is just right behind the "Great K...rea".

Funny?

Embarrassing.

Fucker!

Anyway, back to the topic.

I was so nervous since I haven't sit for final exam for quite a period of time.

And it's my first one since the transfer.

Just can't deal with any failure.

I have to study a little more harder since the lecturer's nuts.

Not enough sleep.

Not enough time to study.

Rushing out to the exam hall.

Then I didn't notice that my nail actually broke on my way of dressing up.

Damn!

It's the nails I did for Adam =(

Luckily the paper was OK for me and I manage to answer.

Score! Score! Score!

And now I'm back from Em's house.

With the new nails pattern ON.

Please turn on my study mode as I have 1 more paper to go =)

But uhm...

I don't think I will start this EARLY as I am ZYENYI.

You know my style...

Last minute work!

Yay!

Genting trip with my coursemates and roommate after this.

Woo hoo!!!!

Adam Lambert Rocks KL! (Edited)

2010-10-15T15:57:00.007+08:00

OMG do you know that my October 14 2010 was awesome?

I get to meet the world's sexiest, hottest, GLAM-est guy!

Just feel like grabbing his face, lock at him, kiss him gao gao!!

It's getting addictive and I just can't stop listening to his songs!

Maybe it's the "Lambert FEVER"!

"Give you my f-f-fever! You're mine!"

The tickets =)

Entrance: Are you ready?

Our attire

Balls

Opening: Voodoo

OMG look at his eyes! Gorgeous

Whataya Want From Me: Acoustic Version

So chubby yet so sexy =)

He's so "seducing" as I would say...

Feel like kissing and licking him although he's a gay =)

Our seats were at the first row at the side.

OMG my place was so cool that I can even see him walking into the backstage...

Too bad not when he's changing =)

He's just awesome!

The live performance was like: Woo Hoo!!!

Love him lots!

But uhm it was too short =(

The concert started with some performance from the local artists.

LAME.

Daniel Lee? Ow-Kay.

Then delay.

And people started to play with the DiGi balls as you can see in the picture.

"We want Adam! We want Adam!" as the people said.

And it finally started after some mess around =(

But uhm ended in 90 minutes?

First Encore after 1 hour and 15 minutes?

2 songs for Encore.

END.

SOBS.

We haven't had enough!

But HE'S HOT with no doubts.

Love him gao gao!

He's the hottest bitch in the universe!!!!!

By the way Tommy rocks too =)

Anyway,

I heard that there was a protest outside the stadium?

Who're those fucking stupid idiots by the way?

Oh ya some people with high-self-esteem and think that they have the rights to judge on others?

Funny.

Are they too free?

Adam did nothing and yet you guys are going against him?

Not fair!

He's just a performer alright!

A hot and sexy, superb performer.

He's unlike who you describe him to be!

Just stop the nonsense alright?

You guys made me ashame of my nationality.

I love this country but you guys are destroying it.

Not fair!

What if Adam don't like Malaysia anymore ;'(

I just can't believe that this happened.

Poor Glamberts in Malaysia...

Anyway I really wish that this doesn't affect Adam's mood.

I'm so heartbroken to read his tweets =(

Please don't give up on us.

We love you.

Photo credits to Emelia.

Thanks for sharing =)

Night night~

2010-10-11T00:13:00.003+08:00

10.10.10 is over and nothing special happened.

Not very sure with what to do on the date but I do saw a lot of people dating out there.

What's so special about that?

It's just a date!

Well it might be special if you were dating the same girl since 01.01.01.

Possible?

I wonder.

Anyway my 10.10.10 was great.

Spend the first hour of it at my cousin's place.

Had a small gathering among the cousins.

BBQ!

I like BBQ.

But too bad my body don't like it and it protests by showing pimples and ulcers =(

The pimples are so scary right now!

Terrible, horrible, vegetable.

Then headed to church early in the morning.

FYI no sleeps since last night.

Church was amazing!

Thank God for His leading because I wanted to skip church initially =P

Don't tell anyone about that LOL.

The service was fun.

Pastor Kevin and his preaching were both great.

Finish church then Sunway Pyramid.

Manage to get myself some clothes and 2 pairs of extremely charming socks =)

Really want to skip this part as I was so tired all the way.

No mood in the end.

My eyes were like kena heavy punch.

Disaster!

Reached hostel.

Sleep.

Wake up.

Bath.

Online + Facebook-ing.

Blogging.

Sorry for the boring post. I'm too tired for everything right now =(

Any stories to contribute?

Sleep.